Month: December 2010

I have been thinking a lot lately about the subject of change, oh not the whole presidential campaign promise of change, who really believed that? No, what I was thinking about was whether or not people can change. I don’t believe they can, well, their core personalities, that cannot be changed. I think that people can soften themselves, for example, and yes, I will use me, if I use anyone else people will get angry with me. Or they may not even recognize themselves; anyhow, I shall use myself.
I am an honest person, at times brutally honest, I get it from my Dad’s side of the family, and we all have that tendency. He had that trait in overdrive; I hate to say I have inherited that from him. Not that it is bad to be honest, it is wonderful, however, to be so frank all the time, with no softening the blow talent is, well it is not how you win friends and influence people.
Cordelia Chase said it best “tact is just not saying true stuff” that seems to be the motto of one section of my family. Myself included, however, over the years I have learned to temper the truth with gentleness, when needed. Trust me when I tell you I am still brutally honest and frank when the situation warrants it and I feel the person I am speaking with will not get it if I am too gentle with them.
So my core personality has remained intact, I have not changed in that respect. What has changed is the way I deliver the message. The point here is whatever a person’s core personality is, they will not change, they are incapable of it.

I have a new obsession, the Smurfs app on the IPhone. I love it! Cannot get enough of it, I totally blame Henry; he was showing it off at Thanksgiving, so of course, the next day I download it and am instantly addicted. I have built a Smurf village; I have Poppa Smurf, Greedy Smurf, Jokey Smurf, the miner Smurf, and so many others, just not Smurfette yet. I admit to having an obsessive personality, not OCD personality, I just get obsessive about new things. Then I am over them, after a while. Of course I have not gotten over my obsession for the Bay City Rollers, Kiss, Buffy, Angel, well Joss Whedon, and television in general. I think I may need help.
I am debating on what to do Starbucks wise, I really want it today, however my Friday is actually Saturday this week. So, do I wait till Saturday? Do I cheat and get it today? Decision making is tough, ok, show of hands, who thinks I should get Starbucks today. Hands down, now, all those who think I should wait. Final count to be determined later.
Elizabeth Edwards passed away yesterday; she was an amazing woman who handled horrendous situations with grace and dignity. Her battle with cancer was a long, painful one, never once in any interview did she complain, or whine, or place blame. I admire her, I know many women who have faced the battle of cancer, without a single exception, they have all been fighters and have taught me so much about a woman’s strength, not only physically, but emotionally, mentally and morally. I can only hope if I ever face a similar situation I will look to the women like my friend Sandi and to public figures like Elizabeth Edwards and handle myself with dignity. I can’t promise grace because I am not a graceful person.
I have gotten a few Christmas gifts, ordered online, but I have so much to do! I need to make a list! Peace out homies, I am off to listmaking land!

I have been silent for a few days, I have been busy moving, that is a huge job. Nothing went right on this move. It all started on Thursday when I went into the office to see if I could possibly look at the apartment to get some measurements. The manager looked at me with the proverbial deer in the headlights look. This is where I should mention the apartment complex has been sold, and this is a whole new management team. She gave me the keys and said she had not done a walk through to see if everything has been done. I went to the apartment, nothing had been done, NOTHING. So on Friday morning I advised the front office that nothing had been done, I was due to move in Saturday. She assured me that everything would be done in time for me to move in on Saturday.
Late Friday evening is when they began painting, they laid carpet on Saturday, needless to say, me wanting to start moving at 10:00 am was a moo point. Like a cow’s opinion, it didn’t matter. It took me 3 days to move. Worst move EVER. On the upside, I love the new apartment. There is so much space. It is like being in a house without the responsibilities of one.
I admit I became incredibly upset, as I like things to go my way, huge surprise there, I unleashed on an old woman in the front office. Horrible of me, I know, but seriously, I know the former management team must have left paperwork; I had to sign the new lease. The former tenants had been gone since Thanksgiving weekend. The new manager claims that she didn’t even know the space was vacant, however, I met a new neighbor and he said that the former tenants of said space also had a hard time with their new apartment; they switched to my old floor plan. So I don’t know what is going on, all I know is I received a 3 day credit on my rent for next month.
The only company that did not disappoint was Time Warner, there when they said they would be, didn’t leave until making sure everything worked. They rocked.
Elizabeth and Alex also rocked, Alex was there all three days, Elizabeth could not be, but she worked like a dog the first day. Jeffrey unable to help due to back surgery. But I know he was there wishing me well.
Yesterday was Elisabeth’s birthday, Jeffrey’s wife; I did not get to see her as she had to work until after I went to bed. But I think I really did good on the birthday present this year, I am not going to tell you all what I got until after I get to give it to her, on the off chance she reads this.

Today is my Friday; all I can say is TGIF! I am beyond exhausted, with only one weekend day and working Thanksgiving and the day after, I am ready to sleep in tomorrow. Of course it will not be a long sleep in; I have a lot to do. Pack up the apartment; get things ready to move on Saturday. Very excited!
Tonight the Irishman and I are going to my friend Wanda’s house for a Christmas gathering, so much fun. I absolutely adore Wanda, the Irishman told me out of all of my Mary Kay friends he has met, she is his favorite. And he told me this when he was inebriated, so I know it is the truth. Guinness is like truth serum for him.
I am thinking of cutting out the caffeine in the new year, however, I believe if I did that my whole system would shut down. I firmly believe that my whole nervous system is dependent on large doses of caffeine. Not in the form of sodas, but in the pure form of coffee. I love coffee, coffee treats, coffee by itself with heavy whipping cream and a little sweet and low. I have been having a love affair with coffee for as long as I can remember. Every diet I have ever indulged in has included coffee, so cutting it of my life would be cruel, cruel for the coffee industry and cruel for me. I believe cruel for everyone around me as I would go through massive withdrawals.
Happy Friday everyone! I will be indulging my coffee treat cravings with Starbucks today, so go out and make it a great Starbucks day!

I went to the doctor yesterday to figure out what is wrong with me, ok, just the one thing that is wrong with me, because the other stuff, well, I embrace the other stuff. So he says what I think is wrong with me, he doesn’t think that is the problem. He said I don’t have the right kind of symptoms. So he is running blood work to check some things, if the tests come back normal he is sending me to an endocrinologist. I have resisted the urge to go to WebMD to check the symptoms. It is killing me not to go there. He said something about thyroid issues, well let me tell you I know it is not hypo-thyroid, because my dad had that and he lost weight. No, I can’t have a disease where you lose weight; I have to have something that makes me look like a puffer fish. Of course that could be all the recent coffee treats from Starbucks. Darn me and my addictions.
So, the Irishman said something the other day that has bothered me, he was talking about someone he knows and he said that this person’s girlfriend had the upper hand in the relationship. The upper hand. Why does someone have to have the upper or lower hand in a relationship? Why can’t a relationship be on equal footing? My parents had the perfect example of an equal relationship. So I asked the Irishman what he meant, he said that said person had no say in the relationship. The girlfriend controls this person. My thoughts on this is the Irishman doesn’t know what is going on at home, I have a feeling this is a person that needs to be kept in check.
I really hope they find out why I am so hot all the time, I am so happy with 30 degree weather, I don’t wear a coat, no hat, no gloves. I just go outside and give thanks that something has cooled me down. It is not flashes, it is constant. I cannot cool down. Giving in to urges going to WebMD now.