Month: August 2020

I read Britney Spears has a conservatorship, where someone makes all of her decisions for her.

I think I need one of these, I am currently making a conscious decision that could potentially change the course of my life.

The other day I looked in my backyard and saw a small black kitten! As soon as I opened the door it ran off, I was devastated and began to immediately devise a plan to capture it.

I went to the store and bought cat food different from what Fat Catstard eats and got two bowls. One for the food and one for the water, then I put it out by the back fence line. I do this every evening now, I want to let the kitten know we are a cat friendly home and they can come to the back door so I can pet it.

I know, this is a step towards crazy cat lady status, I planned on being just a regular crazy old lady, but now we are adding more than one cat in the mix. I have no self control, I can easily see this being a gateway cat. Leading to other cats, then Stormie and I shall be overrun by cats. We will be the minority in our house, one human, one dog, surrounded by countless cats.

I need a catervention, someone take over my life, there is no pay involved in this position. Just come and take away the extra cat food so I don’t lure unsuspecting felines into my cat trap.

Oh wait a tick, I could be Cat Woman in the making! I could be the next villain in the DC world! I am working out, eating right, in a few months I could look good in that cat suit. never mind, I don’t want a catervention, I’ll take being a villain in the DC world, and a hero in the Marvel Universe. I could do both, I am woman hear me roar, or meow, or whatever.

It is Hotworx for the win, that will get me into crime fighting, or villainess shape. Whichever direction the script takes me.

My weekend will be over soon, back to work tomorrow, praying for every person that I talk to. That is how I start my day, praying that I can make a difference with every person I speak to, that I can be helpful and even if I cannot resolve their issue in that instance that I can get us further down the path of resolving the issue. I also pray that God brings every person I’m supposed to speak to on the line with me.

I am a firm believer in God’s Devine hand in everything we do, I pray that I can exemplify His being in my life

I hope you all have a good day, make good decisions and be a blessing in someone’s life today.

As usual, any comments, questions or criticisms can be left here or sent to me at angie@angieworld.com.

I awoke to the hint of fall in the air today, I promise when I went outside this morning the air felt crisp. I haven’t felt that in a long time.

I had the strangest dream last night, I mean really weird.

I met an actor on a tv show and he asked me to come to California to go to a birthday party with him. It wasn’t him today it was him 20 years ago, and he was really cute.

I was really excited but didn’t want to go by myself, so I asked a local DJ and his wife (people I have never met in real life) if I could take their two children with me.

They said yes, so off I went with these two children to California. We get there and the actors house is beautiful, it was the day of the party and we are all getting ready in our own rooms.

My outfit was stunning! I need to find this outfit in real life! It was black satin/taffeta jumpsuit with gold embroidery, I don’t even like gold but this was gorgeous. It also had dark purple in the design. It was so pretty and I looked so good in it and that is when I woke up, when I saw myself in the mirror.

I looked good in my dream, all of the menopause weight was gone and my hair was perfect along with my nails and of course the shoes!

I had gold BCBG platforms, they were perfection.

I wonder what happened after I woke up, did I go to the party, did I have fun, did I marry the actor? I don’t know, maybe I will finish the dream tonight.

Anyway, going to Hotworx has been a revelation, finally something I look forward to doing. Physical activity that is, I am really happy Shay forced me to go.

I feel like I am finding my old self, with all of the supplements and the exercise. I am telling you, this place with the infrared sauna workouts, it really is getting rid of the toxins. I feel so much better, I highly recommend it, and I hate the heat!

I hope you all have a good day and make good choices, if Hotworx is in your area try it and tell me how you like it.

Here I am back again to grieve on here, today is the day my mom went home. August 11, 2003, ten years after my dad went, she followed him. She would tell me during that 10 years that all she wanted to do was go home. I knew what she meant, before you think my mom was suicidal, she was not, she had Alzheimer’s, during her lucid moments she knew that.

She would say to me that she hoped she went home, because she knew she wasn’t in her right mind and she didn’t know what she did during those times.

I told her that in no uncertain terms was she going anywhere else. God knew her heart and knew how she behaved in her right mind.

I miss my mom, if I’m being honest I’m envious of people my age that still have their mom here. I was only 39 when she left, that is way too early and I always say I didn’t get to have her as long as I should have.

But I did have her for the right amount of time, it is due to her that I am any kind of mother at all. I learned from her, everything I know in that arena comes from her, she was amazing.

Just sitting next to her in silence made you want to be a better person. She had a quiet, calm presence, her soul was at peace and it showed. She had a joy that radiated out of her very essence, anyone that ever spent time with her came away being a better human.

I wish I could change the last ten years of her life, without the love of her life the Alzheimer’s came on much earlier than it would have with him by her side. I fully believe that and no one can change my mind about that.

On this day I choose to celebrate her, celebrate the good things I inherited from her. Whenever we would discover something we had in common she would say it was by osmosis.

It was, nurture over nature, this proves it, we both like quirky things. For instance the heel of the bread, we both love that, and the bread with all of the seeds in it. The whole grain, pancakes, hot chocolate and grilled cheese sandwiches. I know to some looking in that seems mundane and would think everyone likes most of those things.

But I got those things from my mom, no one can tell me anything different.

I hope she is celebrating with her daddio and Jesus today, celebrating her heavenly anniversary. The day she was whisked away from all of the suffering and reunited with my dad and she got to see the face of Jesus.

She was an amazing woman that gave so much of herself to everyone around her. she was the backbone of our family, she was the heart of our family, she was the glue of our family. I hope all of you reading this have someone like my mom in your life.

If your mom is still here with you, please hug her, listen to her stories and eat her food. That’s really all she wants from you.

Hi Michael, it’s your birthday and you would have been 36 years old. I often wonder who you would be now, would you be the typical big brother? Who would your siblings be if you were still with us? Would Jeffrey be different because he would not have been the oldest?

I’ll never have those answers, you left us way too soon, I miss you every single day. I know it’s been a long time since you went to heaven, but there are days that my arms still ache to hold you one more time.

You were a complete surprise and a complete happiness. Every time I hear Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go I think of you and dancing you around the house singing to you. Your belly laughs filling the house, making a home, you loved that song. Even the song for the L’eggs pantyhose, when I would do your leg exercises and sing that song. You would laugh so hard at that one, I can still hear your laugh, still see the joy in your eyes.

I know without a doubt you are in heaven, your grandma and grandpa there with you, along with your great grandparents and great-great aunt Effie. I know they are taking care of you until I get there, but will you still be a baby?

Do babies who have passed away still grow in heaven? Will you be an adult when I see you again? Will you know who I am? I don’t have any answers, I still have no answers as to why you died.

SIDS is such an enigmatic infant death, everything they say causes it, you weren’t around. No smoking, no low birth weight (you were 8 pounds 10 ounces), you weren’t a premie. None of it, I have no answers and at times it gnaws at me.

I miss you and love you and look forward to seeing you when God is done with me on this earthly plane.

Love,

Mom

Something happened about last week that really bothers me, I’ve been thinking a lot about it, I even spoke to Tammi and Shay about what happened.

It was on Twitter, of course, you knew that was coming, either that platform or Facebook. This time it was the bird, and it was Dean Cain.

I know!

There is this website called Cameo, you can request a video from a celebrity or receive a chat from them. Are you with me so far?

Well, Dean is on this and on his profile, at that time, it said you could receive a video or a chat. That is important information.

So a woman on Twitter, I’m not going to say her name because she has had a lot of vitriol thrown at her this past week, posted she had paid for a chat, she called it a DM, same thing. She had paid for it and never received it, she tweeted it because she wanted Dean to know that this company was charging people and not delivering.

He does business with them and he does need to know that, I would want to know if it were me.

People are paying for things and they are not delivering on them.

Well, Dean comes back with, there is no DM, basically called her a liar and then told her to quit playing the victim. I was beyond shocked by this and even more shocked at what happened next.

There is a woman that is his ardent supporter, she posts throwback things all of the time and supports anything he does. Not a bad thing, you just need to know this for context, she posts a screenshot of the Cameo page that is Dean Cain’s and it say clearly has video and chat options.

I thought ok, this is it, he is going to apologize and say you know what let me look into this because I never agreed to a chat option.

I waited days to see this, all the while this woman is getting trashed and he is allowing it. No, he can’t control what others do, but he could have put a stop to it by simply acknowledging that he had been mistaken.

He didn’t, at all, I even asked the woman, did he apologize and I missed it?

No, he did not, and some of these women are vicious in their attacks. It is both sad and disgusting.   I would like to say I have never seen anything like it, but that would be a lie.  The vitriol spewed at this woman was incredibly sickening, these women should be ashamed of themselves, but they are not and never will be. 

So here I sit, disappointed, not disillusioned, because after all, Dean Cain is human. Humans are fallible, they are at times maddening, mistaken and incapable of saying mea culpa.

I hope the woman this happened to realizes that these women were never her friends. They are simply on twitter to follow Dean Cain and come to the rescue when said actor is “attacked”.

She didn’t attack him for the record, she stated a fact.

I am going to put screen shots of what his page on Cameo looked like as of four days ago and what it looks like now.

Apparently he did tell them to take off the chat option, but it was clearly there before.

This does not lessen my enjoyment of Lois and Clark, I have it on right now, it does shine a different kind of light on the actor. Like I said, he is human, that is the long and short of it, humans make mistakes, humans don’t apologize for their wrongs and maybe fans of actors and actresses everywhere should realize that even when they play a superhero, they really aren’t the character they play on television.

Much like actors who play doctors, lawyers, scientists, well except Mayim Bialik, she played a neuroscientist on tv and is actually a neuroscientist.

Have a great day, remember kindness and humility go a long way.

As many of you know the beginning of August is never easy for me, the next few days will be a little rough.

As usual any comments, questions or criticisms can be left here or sent to me at angie@angieworld.com. Oh any vitriol will not be published, this is, after all, my world.