Month: August 2019

On this day in 1985 something amazing occurred. Amazing and scary, Jeffrey Andrew made his appearance.

What an incredible thing, God entrusted me with this beautiful baby boy. Who was immediately placed in the NICU. He was born with water on his lungs. The doctor told me if they had waited closer to his due date that wouldn’t have happened. But back then if you were having a scheduled C-Section they took the baby two weeks early.

He was there 6 days, one doctor told me that he would never be normal. He would always have breathing problems and would never play sports. Boy was he wrong about that.

Jeffrey you are the best son a mom could ask for. I know I say this a lot but I really am proud of the man you grew up to be.

You’re an amazing father to Tessa and a good example of a man stepping up to the plate with another’s children. Marrying a woman with 4 children of her own and treating them with love and caring. I’m so proud of you, I love you so much and love that I get to see all of this transpire in your life.

You came into our lives at exactly the right time, you were always an old soul.

I’ll tell one childhood story then I’ll stop.

You were three years old, it was before Elizabeth Anne was born, we were driving home from Mother’s Day Out.

You said I miss Jesus. I said well son he’s always with us in our hearts and in our lives. You said no, I mean from before. When I was in heaven before I got here. I miss him playing ball with me.

I almost drove off of the road. I love you dearly I hope your day is awesome and amazing just like you are.

Love, mom.

So after my juice cleanse, which went very well, I’ve decided to do the HCG diet. It is very strict, which I am comfortable with. For two weeks it is 500 calories a day, intermittent fasting and a ton of water and the HCG supplements. It is to kick start ones metabolism.

I’m very excited about doing this, I will be starting on Saturday. I never change my eating habits on a Monday. That’s ridiculous, what if you have a reaction and you’re at work? No way.

So Saturday it is. I’ll keep you updated.

I have done something that might get my face eaten off tonight. I bought a sailor suit for Fat Catstard and put it on him. To say he was unhappy is an understatement. He gave me the death stare. I know I’m a goner but I very literally cannot stop laughing. Which is probably making it worse.

Now to find a cat kilt for him, that way he can really be Fat Catstard. Poor Ronald. He’s really going to hate me. I’ll go out laughing. Does anyone else dress their pets up? Maybe I should do the Husky, dress her up as Austin Powers to Ronald’s Fat Catstard. How funny would that be? I have to do it! These animals are going to rebel. I can feel it.

I’m going to leave you with a picture of Ronald dressed a sailor. Enjoy.

Sit right down and make yourself comfortable, let me tell you a little story about Angie Vs Suddenlink.

It all started last Wednesday, I come home to find my internet down. Really down. Not even a flashing connectivity light. I call, I know this is an outside issue, after all, this is what I do for a living.

I jump through their troubleshooting hoops, after all I realize they are just following a script. They finally decide to get a technician out.

They said Friday, I’m very understanding and say that will be fine. Then magically the appointment disappears and it will be Monday. I am not happy, at that point I try and explain I don’t even need to be home. It’s not in my home. The issue is outside, this is the point they became condescending and rude. I accept the Monday appointment because, well, murder is illegal in Texas.

Saturday rolls around and my phone rings, it is Suddenlink, they would like to continue troubleshooting.

Me: what?

Them: it’s your fault it isn’t working, you must have moved the modem.

Me: contemplating a life sentence. Nope. Not worth it. Send the tech.

Flash forward to Monday, today, I rush home, my appointment is from 4 to 6. I decide to call to check on it. The automated system tells me the tech will be there at 7.

This is the part where I completely lose my mind. I ask for a person. I finally get someone onshore. Who was very nice. I don’t know what she did but a tech appeared at my door 20 minutes later.

Are we all waiting for what the issue was? It was outside, at the terminal, in my yard. The neighbor moved and instead of disconnecting their service they disconnected mine.

All of this time it was their fault. I don’t think they realize how much not having the internet impedes on my private life.

No Chuck, thank goodness I have DVD’s. Lois and Clark to the rescue. No internet makes it harder to stalk er keep track of I mean follow in social media, Dean Cain.

I now have internet and I am once again at peace.

So, yeah, it’s confession time. I did it, I did the one thing I said I’d never do. I bought tickets to meet Dean Cain.

I know! Right! What am I doing? This could be the whole Scott Baio incident all over again. This is going to be epically glorious or I am going down in a blaze of glory.

I don’t know what has possessed me, this is incredibly uncharacteristic. I am not brave in this manner, did I mention I’ve already bought the outfit? Yes. I plan on looking very cute, well as cute as a 55 year old woman can.

I need prayer. I don’t know what I was thinking. Is it too late to get a refund?

On an up note, I’ll also get to see my BFF and her husband and see his band play. That’s pretty cool, maybe I’ll shoot my shot and invite Dean. 😉

Also, a weekend away will be nice, kind of a getaway before the madness of the holidays.

Huge shout out to my ex-mother-in-law for the heads up about where to stalk I mean see Dean at. Please have bail money ready. I’m just saying you have all been forewarned. I want no surprises when I have to call on any of you.

I have to go now, my stomach hurts just thinking about what I’ve set in motion.

After a rough weekend I rounded it out with An Angel Told Me So by Wilma Jean Jones and Michael McAdams.

I firmly believe in God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit, I also believe God sends His Angels down here to give us messages. Messages of hope, strength and wisdom. I also believe God sends them to protect us, I know it sounds pithy in the wake of such tragedy that has happened around the country in the past few weeks, but i do believe it could have been much worse.

in this book, the authors are mother and son, and the messages that they get from what they refer to as spiritual teachers (I call them messengers from God), are heartfelt and instructive.

My mother told me a story once, it was after my dad died, she was grieving so terribly. She asked God for one more visit from her Foy, that night she said that a robed figure brought my dad to her, he told her to keep heart, that she would join him and they would be together again. He then hugged her and she said at that moment she knew it wasn’t a dream, because my dad gave her the extra squeeze no one else knew about.

My dad told me of a lot of times God gave him visions, so I believe that God talks to us. I believe He sends emissaries to convey messages to us.

The trick is to discern what is coming from the Lord and what is not, after reading this book i honestly believe that the messages the authors are receiving are from God.

I am going to include the line to the book on amazon, I highly recommend it, especially if your heart is troubled or especially, or you just feel like you need some answers.

So the roughness of this week comes to a close. I miss my mom more than I can say but I know that she was more than ready to go when she left this earthly plane.

On the anniversary of her going home I refuse to dwell on the negative of that event. Instead I’ll tell you about the positive influence she had in my life.

Without my parents I very literally don’t know what I would have become. My mom didn’t have to be my mom, she chose to be my mom.

She was kind, considerate, loving, smart, talented and funny. I wish I were more like her, instead I am way more like my dad.

I’ll be forever grateful Foy and Odella chose to be my mom and dad, I’m only sorry I didn’t get them for a longer period of time. I’m really happy my mom only had to live 10 years without her beloved Daddio.

If you still have your mom on this earth I have but one piece of advice. Listen to her, cherish her stories, ask to hear how she met your dad. My mom loves to tell the story of how she and my dad met. Watch how her face lights up when she talks about the love of her life.

August is a tough month, the beginning of August at least. Today is Michael’s Birthday, they say the pain of losing a child lessens as the years go by. They are wrong, the pain is always there we just become adept at hiding it.

I am incredibly adept at hiding any kind of emotional pain. To show any would be to show weakness. I can’t have that.

I will miss Michael until the day I die and can see him again. I have so many questions, will he still be a baby or do babies grow to adulthood in heaven? I don’t know but I’ll find out.

I have to be honest, I don’t really do anything on this day. Literally nothing. Some years are better than others, some are tougher.

The anniversary of my mom’s passing is this coming Sunday. The anniversary of my brother’s passing was August 3.

I do believe I’m done for today.

Ok, so, I’m on day three of my 7 day juice cleanse. So far the results are as follows: no knee pain at all, all joint pain gone, stomach pains completely gone and my energy level is increasing.

Also I feel more alert, I haven’t had coffee since Friday and I have only gotten one headache. It was quickly dispatched with Excedrine for migraine.

This is a vacation for my mouth, no chewing, it is a vacation for my esophagus, a vacation for my digestive system. I can definitely see incorporating a two to three day juice fast once a month.

I love sweets and I haven’t had any cravings so far. This is amazing.

When I ordered the juices I had the option to have them change out one juice a day for a spicy one. I sat for a moment and quickly clicked the button. Today was ghost pepper. Ghost. Pepper. Me. The woman who doesn’t do peppers. At all.

It was so good! The only one I haven’t cared for so far has been one with turmeric in it. It was bitter, but I got it down.

I highly suggest this cleanse, I have 4 more days. I really can’t wait to see what the end brings.