Disappointments

I know, I know, I know, this will seem redundant at first glance. However, I’ve seen new things that add even more nuance to the issue at hand.

Joss Whedon, I grow more disillusioned by the day. Ray Fisher was bad enough, now we have Gal Gadot lending credibility to the bad behavior that went on during the Justice League filming.

First of all Gal Gadot is a real life Wonder Woman. She is an Israeli trained soldier. In real life. She isn’t just a pretty face, she’s the real deal. When Wheaton tried to intimidate her, well, she didn’t go meekly into the night.

I know this was published back in February, but I just saw this. Charisma Carpenter’s account of what happened to her on the set of Buffy/Angel. I had long suspected part of it. But to see the whole thing was sickening. I highly suggest you check out her twitter account from February 21st.

After Charisma’s post the floodgates opened. His ex-wife stated in 2017 that he was a serial cheater and a liar. He touts himself as a modern day male feminist. Just look at all of my female characters, he says. But behind the scenes it’s a completely different story.

Amber Benson has hinted at her Whedon induced trauma, as has Michelle Tratenberg. She has said there was a rule he was not allowed to meet with her alone due to his inappropriate behavior with her. She was a minor at the time. What did he do to Harriet the Spy???? Sarah Michelle Gellar has issued a statement saying she would forever be proud to be associated with Buffy the Vampire Slayer, but did not want her name associated with Joss Whedon.

I would love to hear from others, the bigger names, some from the Avengers crew. But perhaps those stars were big enough names that he behaved himself. We may never know, what I do know is that my favorite shows are forever tainted.

Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Angel, The Dollhouse, Firefly, Agents of Shield, the Avengers. All tainted now, Joss Whedon proving that the ones that ring their own bells the loudest have something hiding behind all of the clanging.

Easter and King Kong

So much, I know I have been MIA, but times goes fast, then slow, then not at all. First off, good morning China! I see you still love my writing, so I wanted to be sure and recognize you. I am still not getting the hokey pokey for the beer flu.

That is out of the way and we can continue with my musings.

Easter was last weekend, the day we come together to celebrate our Lord and Savior’s victory over death. I celebrate by going to my oldest son and his wife’s house. It was filled with lots of food, laughter, people (this is Texas, the land of the free), children and family.

Our family might look a little different than other peoples family. I ate at the same table as my ex-husband and his wife. As a matter of fact I sat next to his wife, she’s funny, I like her. 

But before that, on Thursday, Tess and I went to the movies, to the actual theater. We say Godzilla vs King Kong, we had the popcorn, we sat in the seats and we had a good time. The movie was fun, familiar and formulaic, a good start to returning to our normal lives.

I did have an incident with the movie theater chain, not at the theater itself. I received an email on Saturday telling me that I had gone to see a movie in Boston. I was like um no, I log into my app and someone had hacked it and used my two free movie credits. 

I called, spoke to someone very nice who sounded just as horrified as I was. He promised to take care of it, a few days later I receive an email stating it wasn’t their problem. Too bad, so sad, for me. I replied with is this a joke, the next day I received a phone call. It was from a very nice representative from Cinemark. Apologizing profusely, she not only gave me the two credits that were taken from me, she added two more. She did not have to do that, but it did make me appreciate the company. 

I will be going back to the theater and I will make up the freebies at the concession stand. We do love our popcorn, I get water, I don’t drink pop. Yes, I said pop, not coke, not soda, POP. 

I went to Target yesterday, sans mask, what a wonderful experience. And surreal, I was very literally the only one in there without one. I am astounded that people actually wear them, they do nothing. That has been proven over and over, by science. I will be going to Costco today, I think they make you if you want to shop there. So yes, I will wear one, because I need some things. 

No one is talking about how Texas opened 100%, mask mandate gone, and the beer flu cases are going steadily down. Interesting how no one wants to acknowledge that fact, probably because it is not in their best interest. 

I am going now, I have to get dressed and do my errands, then I can reward myself with the latest episode of Falcon and Winter Soldier, oh and the Mighty Ducks new show. Super cute and well worth the price of admission.

As usual, any comments, questions or criticisms can be left here or sent to me at angie@angieworld.com. If the China people could let me know what the find so fascinating I’d really appreciate it!

Prayer and 7-11

It’s been a strange week, so much weirdness, first off, Hello China! I hope your week has gone well and your many hits to my blog has given you good incite to a 57 year old menopausal American woman.

Last night I had the most amazing evening, I went to a women’s prayer meeting at a lovely restaurant. If you are ever in Plano, TX I highly recommend Toulouse in West Plano. Excellent service and fantastic food, get the brie, you will not be sorry.

We had a guest speaker, Ronnie, who is a beautiful 86 year old woman that gave her testimony. She was born to Jewish parents, met a man that would become her husband, he led her to Jesus. Her family disowned her and she and her husband traveled the world ministering to people. 

We had an incredible prayer session in our private room at the restaurant and I met some strong prayer warriors.

It was a late night and I needed to stop and get cream for my morning coffee, I didn’t know that all stores close at 11pm now. Our world is collapsing as we know it, so I decide to stop at 7-11, as it was the only thing open and get some milk for my coffee.

I walked in and there was a man standing there that said hello, rather loudly. I said hello back and nice sweatshirt, it was OU, I had no choice.

When I came back to the register to pay for my things he told the cashier he was paying for mine. I protested, he insisted, since he was drunk out of his mind I decided not to argue.

He then said I bet you don’t even like the Sooners, I laughed and said I was born in Oklahoma and I LOVE the Sooners. It is an unhealthy love, but focus, that is not the point of this story.

He then asks me if I will wait for him outside, I look at the clerk as if to say what is happening. She gave me a signal that said he was harmless so I agreed.

He walked outside and began rambling, as only the drunk do, and asked me if I was a teacher. Befuddled, I said no, he said oh you look like a giant nerd. 

I said yes, I am, as I am very proud of that, he then proceeded to tell me I was a hot chick, to which I burst out laughing.

He asked if I was single, I said no, because technically, he didn’t say romantically and I have a dog and two cats at home.

He then proceeds to tell me he just retired and was celebrating and bought a new vehicle. And then says since I am not available he would go back in and hit on the 7-11 girl. His words, not mine, I wished him luck and thanked him for purchasing my items.

I don’t even know what is happening in this world, Vladimir Putin is making more sense than Joe Biden and strange drunk men are hitting on me at a convenience store.

Stay safe out there folks, I do believe it is time for the aliens to arrive.

As usual any comments, questions or criticisms can be left here or sent to me at angie@angieworld.com.

Justice League and Gas Prices

Hey China! What’s up today? I thought I would get our greeting out of the way since you are on my blog every day, several times a day.

Welcome to another day of high gas prices, higher taxes, higher food prices and well higher everything except salaries. I’m not talking about the minimum wage, that should not be $15.00. I’ll tell you why, minimum wage was never supposed to be there for someone to stay forever. It is minimum for a reason, it is an entry level job that you move up from. 

Oh well, it is not my decision, we the people have no say in any of it, we should, as we are, we the people. But there is so much corruption in charge, I pray it all gets exposed before Tess is an adult.

I saw my brilliant hair stylist this week, I am still purple haired and I love it so much. Something interesting was said about it on Facebook, we all know that I love a good comment on social media.

A woman said she wasn’t brave enough to do what I did and that basically her husband would be opposed. I didn’t write my initial response, which was why is he making decisions about your hair. I just put it’s a good thing I don’t have one of those.

I will tell you all this, that would not have deterred me, it’s my hair, I get to do what I want with my hair. I get that some women do everything to please their husbands which includes what they do to their hair. I am not one of those, the only person I ever considered in any hair decisions was my mom. However, that was when I was a teenager and reliant on her and my dad for, well, everything. So when she said I couldn’t have purple hair I abided by that, but if she were alive today, I would still do it. Why you ask, good question, because I live in my own home and pay my own bills. See how brave I am now that she is no longer here to tell me no.

This week is a good week streaming wise, we have Zach Snyder’s Justice League, which is fantastic. I mean it gave so much more nuance and explanations as to what was happening and why. Don’t get me wrong, I do love Joss Whedon (innocent until proven guilty) however he made a mess out of Justice League. The story made no sense, the characters were acting out of, well, character and I was just confused.

This version makes me want to see more, so much more, be prepared, it is 4 hours long. Stretch, plan snacks, and bathroom breaks.

Next up is Flacon and Winter Soldier on Disney+, first episode is setting things up. I suggest sticking with it, WandaVision delivered, this will as well.

I also have seen The Mighty Ducks have a show, I will be checking that out as well. I loved the movies, they were so fun and so heartwarming. 

I don’t have a lot, well I do, but you know, China is watching. Hey China!

As usual any comments, questions or criticisms can be left here or sent to me at angie@angieworld.com. I have to go now as I have to get gas and it is going to make me cry.

Face Freedom

Here I sit, waiting for my car to be inspected so I can renew my tags. Here I sit with a face free from covering. I am so happy, I am also happy to being wearing a face full of makeup.

I became a little lazy this past year, why wear makeup under a mask. And the mask would just rub it off anyway. Forget lipstick, can you imagine, a red spot on a mask.

I love wearing makeup, I have experimented with it since I was 12. With parents semi-approval since 16. I remember my first eyeshadow pallet. Filled with blues, yellow and green. Don’t judge it was the ‘70’s, blue eyeshadow was prerequisite for any event.

I went to Target yesterday with a newly freed face. I seriously cannot tell you how happy this makes me. The check out clerk told me he wished he could ditch his. After all he works behind plexiglass.

I also still refuse to take that vaccine, I will say it again, I have a healthy immune system, why on earth would I mess that up with an untried vaccine. The last time I was sick was January 2020. I do believe it was Covid because the symptoms were exactly the same. It wasn’t the flu, it wasn’t a cold and no I am not going to allow anyone to test my antibodies. They’re mine, I’m keeping them to myself.

I had lunch last weekend with Alex and Elicia, it was at a Mediterranean restaurant. It was so good, it was a buffet and they did ask that we wear masks and gloves when getting our food. That is understandable, I personally think buffets should have been this way all along. People are gross.

While I am on the subject, what adult on planet earth had to be told they needed to wash their hands after going to the bathroom?? Please, I need to know, this is something one learns in preschool. If I know you and you had not been washing your hands before all of this I need to know.

I hope you all have a great day and if you are in the great state of Texas, enjoy your American freedom.

As usual, especially the China hits to my blog, if you have any questions, comments or criticisms you can leave it here or send it to me at angie@angieworld.com.

God Bless Texas

Hello China! I see you have come to visit quite a few times, welcome, I hope you learn incredibly interesting things from my blog.

Yesterday I did something incredibly stupid, it was my last break of the day and I was getting ready to take Storm for a walk. I grab the keys and without thinking opened the door, with no leash on said dog. 

I was instantly horrified, she is a Husky, she is a runner! What to do, I grabbed the leash and went after her, you can’t run because she thinks that is a game. So I said Storm, very forcefully, because we know children listen to that tone, she stopped, turned and looked at me. Then continued on her merry jaunt, she crossed the street, I thought to myself “I am going to have to call work and tell them I won’t be coming back today because I am chasing a dog.” I’m sure that would have gone over well.

I yelled TREAT, she stopped, turned around, trotted past me and went to my front door and sat down.

I was floored, I quickly gathered my wits and put her leash on her and we went for our walk.

I don’t know where my head was but it was not in the game. I finished my work day with no other incidents.

I live in Texas, it is a great place to be, I am very happy we have a Governor that has common sense. Texas is open 100% and no more mask mandates. As of March 10, 2021 we will be free Americans once more. 

I will not be wearing a mask and I will not be taking that vaccine. Any of them, you see, I have a healthy immune system, the masks and the vaccines do not help with a healthy immune system. In fact they work the opposite, they hurt a healthy immune system. So Sam I am, I will not wear them, I will not partake, I will remain free.

Here is my thing, so many people are fearful, so many Christians are fearful. We are commanded by Christ not to be fearful and trust in the Lord. Deuteronomy 31:8 “He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraiddo not be discouraged.” Proverbs 3:5 “Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding”.

So why are Christians running around fearing a virus that has a 99.5% survival rate? And why were people not fearing the flu? Why were people not washing their hands before this? So many question, not many answers, but I do know what my answer is. FREEDOM. That is my answer, and I will enjoy it, all of it, I do not fear what I cannot control. All I can control is me, for me I don’t fear Covid-19, I had it in the very beginning of this debacle, they didn’t even know what it was. I literally felt the worst I have ever felt in my life and it took me a while to get my strength back. But because I have a healthy immune system I survived. My brother did not, however he had Alzheimers and if he had caught the flu or developed pneumonia the end result would have been the same. I know without one doubt he is in Heaven telling stories right now. He was such a great story teller.

I digress, no more face masks and no vaccine for me, however, if you want to get the vaccine or still wear a face mask I will not judge you.

That is your choice, choice being the operative word, we all make choices, my choice is my business, your choice is your business.

God Bless Texas, the land of the free is coming back and I cannot wait! I heard Joe Biden called us all Neanderthals, I am a proud neanderthal if that is the case. Due to his descent into dementia, tomorrow he won’t remember he called us that, so there’s that.

As usual, any comments, questions or criticisms can be left here or sent to me at angie@angieworld.com.

Menopause Rage and Cancel Culture

Menopause rage is a real thing, irrational menopause rage. Something as simple as an innocuous comment on a stupid app. I’m not going to say what set me off, I’m just going to say I’m really glad I put my phone down and walked away.

I will tell you the 4 legged creatures got quite the earful.

I went to my Functional Nutritionist Friday for blood results and more tweaking of my supplements. My iron is not coming up as fast as she would like, so now I am on low dose iron supplements. I am also taking something for liver function and also enzymes for stomach acid production. My vitamin B levels are still low, higher than they were before but still way low.

I ran out of the estrogen during the bad week here in Texas. So I had been off of estrogen for two weeks. Now I am trying to get my hormones back in balance.

Everything went wonky that week, not only did I run out of estrogen, I didn’t take anything that week. In all honesty I was just trying to keep the fire going to keep the living room warmish. It was very stressful and I didn’t sleep that week.

On another note, I was watching The Rookie, the character John Nolan said this great line: “The thing about celebrities is I think they get locked in time in your head. You know whatever that show is that you loved them from, that’s the way you expect them to be”. This is so thought provoking and true. It’s not only celebrities that we do this with. Also professions, we expect more from certain professions and when people let us down by showing they are human, well it isn’t pretty.

Cancel culture is like the boulder in Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark. it just barrels downward picking up speed until there is no stopping it.

Until it reaches the bottom, by then it has wrecked havoc, indiscriminate in its destruction.

Something we should definitely leave in 2020.

Snow Storm and Recovery

I don’t know if you have heard or not, but we had an unusual snow storm here in Texas. The whole state of Texas had a winter storm.

I would like to be able to say I enjoyed it, but this was not an enjoyable kind of storm. Power was out for days, water went out and people died. 

I lost power at roughly 9am on Monday, February 15, 2021, it came on again at about 10 am for 15 minutes, then back out. It would continue to come on for 15 minutes and go out for anywhere to an hour to two hours at a time. Until Wednesday February 18, 2021, then it came back on at 2:30pm and stayed on until 9pm, then back off until roughly 11pm. It has been on since then, I am very fortunate.

When it first went off I realized I had some firewood in the garage. Not a lot, but I thought surely the power would be back on by the time this is all burned up.

It was not, I am very fortunate I am a procrastinator, this past summer I had trimmed the big tree in my front yard. I cut three huge branches off of it. I drug them to my backyard with the intention of cutting them into smaller pieces for to have them hauled off.

I never did, so I went into the backyard with my hand saw and began hacking away at them.

I used all but one to keep a fire going in the fireplace, I was incredibly blessed to have had that. There is a reason God created me to be a procrastinator and now we see why.

I had plenty of food, and I had just bought a case of water, which I used for the animals. The drip from the faucet was enough to fill bowls and pans so I could flush the toilet. 

When the power would come on I would quickly charge my phone, cook some food and run the heat. 

I recognize I am fortunate and am mourning the lives lost, I am angered at the managers of the Texas power grid. They sold off the excess of our energy thinking we would not need it for ourselves. They then thought about buying it back but didn’t want to pay the price the up north companies were going to charge them.

They are responsible for the loss of life here in Texas and I pray that the families sue them.

From what I understand the majority of the board of directors of Ercot don’t even reside in Texas. This has to be corrected, we have our own power grid, we have to be in control of it. Period, end of discussion, Texas should be self sufficient, not relying on out of state people to decide the fate of the residents. 

Every state should be self sufficient, every state should have it’s own power grid. No outside country should be able to access any of the United States power grids. Ever. Just as we should not have our hands in any other countries power grids. 

Our infrastructure was not designed for this kind of onslaught, we are a hot state by nature. Our houses are built for heat not cold, we have no salt or sand trucks as we rarely get this kind of weather. To invest in those things would be a waste of money. So we are not prepared, no one could have foreseen this sort of thing happening.

I ventured out Thursday afternoon, I went to Brookshires, to find they were closed. I later learned that a pipe had burst in the store.

So I went to Walmart, a place I never go, but I really didn’t want to go on the highway to Target. 

Walmart had plenty of food, produce, meat, no milk, but did have heavy cream, they did have eggs, bread lunch meat. So there was plenty for the people in my town, no bottled water, we are still under a boiling notice. So I have boiled water and put it in the fridge for myself and the animals.

I am still not sure how all of this happened, I know I pray for snow, but I didn’t think God would deliver the past 10 years worth of prayers all in one week. 

We are currently sitting at 50 degrees, all of the snow and ice is melting at a fast pace. 

Please pray for our great state of Texas as we go into recovery. The loss of life, the burst pipes, water damage, structural damage, it will all be huge. I can tell you this, Texas is filled with the most resilient people I have ever known, this state will be back better than ever. I am so proud to say this is my adopted state and I raised three of the those great Texans.

57 and Counting

So today is the day after my birthday, I begin my 57th year on this planet. I don’t know what to think, I am now 7 years older than my mom when I was born. My children are all adults and my granddaughter is fast approaching adulthood.

I am here with two cats and a dog, well a husky, almost the same as three cats. 

I have had a life in these past 57 years, I have amazing children, amazing friends and I haven’t accomplished anything that 16 year old Angie wanted to.

Wait, I take that back, I now have purple hair, 16 year old Angie wanted that very much. Other than that I have done much with this life. 

Perhaps that is why God didn’t bless me with the life He has others. I have had to struggle every single day of my life. I am alone, I live in silence, except for the television and when I talk to the animals. 

This past year has taken away my ability to see the people I work with daily, it has taken away my ability to go to the movies and to take my granddaughter to the movies. 

So here I sit, in silence except for the tv and the occasional conversation with my animals.

I know, I’m alive, something to be grateful for, and I am, I am also grateful for a good roof over my head and plenty of food. 

There was a time in my life those things were precarious, no longer, there was a time in my life when I had $20.00 left after paying bills, to buy food for myself and my three children for the week. God provided then and He continues to provide. Trust me, I am not complaining, but there are times when I see what He has done in other peoples lives and I think He must really love them. And I realize I am not highly favored, I am minimally favored. I was not blessed enough to have ever had anyone love me romantically. I was not blessed with a ton of money, I have struggled for everything I have. Perhaps that is why I appreciate it that much more. 

This birthday is really a reminder of everything I don’t have in my life, have never had in my life and will likely never have in my life. People who have someone in their life that loves them in that romantic way will never understand what it is like to be someone like me.

I was married, he later told me he had never loved me, we had 4 children together, one that passed away as an infant. I had loved him, he held me in great contempt and left us.  

I waited a long time to date, I raised my children first, I felt like they deserved a steady home. Not one that had a revolving door, no one will ever be able to tell me I didn’t do the right thing. I have zero regrets in raising them in a household with just us, I would never have allowed anyone to discipline them besides me.

Then I did date and it was disastrous, the man was horrible but I didn’t find that out until it was too late. I thought I had better discernment than that, but alas I didn’t. 

He was an alcoholic, a chronic cheater, liar and a abysmal human. I was so happy to be rid of him, that I truly enjoy my singular life.

I will never date again unless God brings me the man and sets him down in front of me and says this one. This is the one I created for you. Until then I will enjoy my life in the fortress of solitude.

I do have great friends, my Bestie, Shay, had wings and brownies delivered to my door for my birthday yesterday. Such a great surprise! She even had them write happy birthday inside the box.

The life I lead now is much preferable to being with the wrong person. I don’t regret my marriage, I have the most amazing children, I don’t regret that at all. 

I do regret the one after him, that was horrible and I really think that moron gave me PTSD, once again, poor choice on my part. Also, he gave the Irish a bad name, I’ll never date anyone from Ireland, I’ll always judge them based on this man’s behavior. Right or wrong, it is how I view all of them now. 

So that is it, here I sit, content with my life, with only one regret. Not too bad.

As usual, any comments, questions or criticisms can be left here or sent to me at angie@angieworld.com.

Jeremiah and Psalms and China

Hello China, I see you have been having fun on my blog. Did you read anything interesting? You do realize I have the ability to see where all of the hits to my blog come from, right?

I welcome all readers from all over the world, but I am curious. What exactly do you find so fascinating that I write about? I would love to know, is it the juice cleanse? The Rustic Cuff? The Fitish ones? 

Whatever it is that you love reading about please, do tell.

This is my birthday month, well, after the 1st, that is Elizabeth Anne’s day.

I love that my birthday is in February, it is fitting, I love winter, I love the color purple and all of those things are in February. God definitely knew what I needed before I was born. It makes sense, due to Jeremiah 1:5 and also Psalm 139:13-18. God knows us even before we are born, before He knit us in our mother’s womb. 

With my birthday looming, I am thinking more and more about how glad I am that I am alive. Abortion is an abomination, I fully believe that, as I was one of those unwanted children. You know, the ones Democrats say should just be aborted before they are born. I am happy that I was born, that I was adopted, even though it was at a later age, not as a baby. 

I am happy my parents took a chance on a wild child that had no discipline and had very little love in her life. I am so happy that I got to have the privilege of being born, that I wasn’t killed before I was born.

I’m pretty sure my children are grateful as well, because, well, they exist due to the fact I exist. My granddaughter exists due to the fact I exist. Everyone has a purpose in life, I find I am still searching for mine, even at this advanced age.

Soon I will be 57, yes, that is a larger number, I only have roughly 57 more years on this earth. 

I believe I should be able to figure out what I am meant to do in that time frame. 

I am in love with my purple hair, I don’t know that I will give it up any time soon. I feel edgy and young with it, also fun and fun-loving. Does anyone else love different color hair? I love seeing all of the colors out there, it is fun and light hearted. Isn’t that something we all need a little of right now?

I hope you all have a great day, oh and China, leave me a message! Tell me what you are reading and what you are getting out of it. I would love to know, remember to read your bible daily and pray to the one true God. 

As usual any questions, comments or critiques can be left here or sent to me at angie@angieworld.