August 29, 1985, a day I will never forget, it is the day my heart began to heal. Rainbow baby was not a term used in those days but it is what you are. The day you were born was both terrifying and joyous, then they said you were born with water on your lungs.
Those 5 days when you were in the NICCU were excruciating, when the one doctor told me you would never be “normal” it was infuriating. I admit I may have had a few choice words for him.
You did grow up to have perfectly normal lungs, a few normal childhood illnesses but all in all perfectly, beautifully normal.
You were always funny and bright, of course an incredibly beautiful boy. Always saying the funniest things, to this day I don’t know where you got some of those things. Other things I know exactly where they came from. Your dad liked to tell you outrageous things and thought it was hysterical when you repeated them.
After we moved to Texas, I discovered Lord and Taylor and Neiman Marcus, important to the story, I promise. When you were three we were in Lord and Taylor, on the escalator, two older ladies were in front of us.
I was very pregnant with your sister, fingers swollen, so no wedding ring, you turned and looked at me and said, in your very loud 3 year old voice, “Why won’t you marry my dad???”
The two older women turned, with eyebrows raised, stared at me, as I turned beet red. I said honey your dad and I are married, mommy just can’t wear her ring because of swollen fingers.
Then the next words were well why won’t you let daddy have a girlfriend.
Needless to say we very quickly left without me spending any money.
You have always been quick witted and so smart, I’ve always been amazed at how your brain works.
There are so many memories I could go on about, Grandpa Reno giving you that first taste of candy.
Climbing to the top of the refrigerator, making your mothers heart literally stop.
Tying your brother up, (along with Daniel) and waiting for him to get himself out of it.
I hope your birthday is the best ever, you deserve all of the best. You were literally my gift from God, my Rainbow, even thought I didn’t know you were a Rainbow.
I am so proud of the man you have become, your beautiful family you created. Happy Birthday Son! I love you so much!