Thomas Alexander Graham Bell

Today, 29 years ago, our family was completed, we welcomed you into our lives. You were welcomed with open arms, an amazing miracle we didn’t know we needed in our lives.

I’ve said it before, you were a huge surprise, we weren’t expecting you and yet there you were. My doctor said that you were meant to be as you had to go through a lot just to exist.

You were our gift from God, I stand by that statement, the doctor was right, you were meant to be from the start.

I love you so much son, I know this year is not what any of us expected. I am proud of the way you have handled it all, I love how your year started.

Being able to see you married to Elicia was a great day, I am so happy to have been able to be there. 

Always persevere, always look challenges in the eye and tackle them. That is the way you have always been and I know you will continue to be that way.

I look forward to seeing what you use your continuing education to do in the future. I am sure it will be something amazing as you are amazing.

You are such a great combination of both my side and your dad’s side of the family. 

I love seeing how you choose to use all of the abilities and gifts you have been given in life. 

I always say it, but it is true, you never cease to amaze me. I love you beyond the moon and back. Happy Birthday Thomas Alexander Graham Bell!


Dear Tessa,

Today you turn 13 years old, it’s hard to believe. It seems like yesterday I was at the hospital hearing the words she’s here and she’s healthy.

I am constantly amazed by you, your humor, your thoughtfulness, your intelligence and your capacity for love.

I love that we share a deep love of superheroes, Star Wars, America and Jesus.

I never take it for granted that you want to spend time with me. I feel blessed, I know there will come a day when hanging out with Gigi will not be cool. You’ll want to be with your friends, I accept that and will soak this in as much as possible now.

I pray your 13th year will be filled with adventure, laughter, love and a few obstacles you can learn from.

I love you so much Tess, always know I’ll be here when you need me.



Happy Birthday America

As I sit here on the 4th of July, an important date in the history of the country I love so much. The United States of America, I am so proud that my ancestors had so much to do with the freedoms we now enjoy.

The very first one of us that came to this country in 1774 ended up with the Continental Army. His son, Peter, married into the Livesay family, who were wagon makers. Those wagons carried American’s westward in the 1800’s.

I often wonder if my own great grandparents came to Oklahoma in one of those wagons.

Here in our country, we are not perfect, we do not have a perfect history. But is is ours and we own it, every day, Americans everywhere strive to do better than the ones that came before them.

In this time, more than ever, we all need to work together for a better future for our progeny.

We have come so far, even from my childhood, we have come so far.

I pray for every service person today, for every man and woman in blue, for every one out there who believes there are still injustices. I pray for peaceful resolutions to the issues that we have here in our country. I pray everyone remembers it is OUR country, all of ours. We are a huge melting pot of so many ethnicities, one race, human, we should all remember that.

We are all one race, one people, humanity, we are on a precipice, I believe, we have the opportunity to build on the work the ones that came before us started.

Love is the answer, it is the key, for everyone, not just a few, do not preach love and then throw a fireball in a building. Do not preach love and deface private property. Do not preach love and lob a brick at someones head.

None of those actions are the American Way, on this day, the day we celebrate our independence from England, let’s remember the sacrifices that have been made so we can say what we want, we can be whatever we want. We can raise our children to remember those sacrifices.

We have the right to pursue happiness, not the right to have happiness, we have the right to pursue it.

Let’s all remember that it isn’t about the color of our skin, we all bleed red, we all have the same amount of bones in our body, we all have the same organs in our bodies. This is bigger than us, it is about leaving our country in a state of something we can be proud that our children inherit.

I still believe all men (and women) are created equally, that we should all have the same opportunities in life, not that the we should be handed said opportunities. We should all work toward goals, not be handed them, we should all be judged by the content of our characters.

I pray for our children, for all of them, that they all grow into productive members of society. That they all know peace and know that peace comes at a price. That freedoms come at a price and men and women step up to the task of ensuring our freedoms.

God Bless America and God Bless ALL Americans.

Brain Issues

I have a couple of things to talk about today and one involves my complete lack of brain matter.

So I ordered some Fitish products, they sent me an email for 40% off, so how could I resist. I placed my order and waited, it wasn’t a long wait, less than 24 hours later I received a notice that said it was delivered.

I eagerly went to my mailbox, not there, I looked at the mailing information in my email and I had put the wrong address. Yes one number off, so I went to the address that was on there, it doesn’t exist.

So I called the post office, which called me back, because there was an hour wait, I opted for the call back. Not really believing they would, but they did and the rep was incredibly nice and helpful and said she would contact the local post office.

A few hours later I get a call, it is my mail carrier herself! You see this is the advantage of living in a small town. She calls and says she had located the package and it was on my front porch. I wasn’t home, I was busy getting my hair done, I said Oh my goodness, thank you so much!

She said that there are two house on my street that order a lot, and she had taken it to the other one. I am one of two that order a lot on my street, let that sink in.

I thanked her profusely and she said if I had any other problems to just call her.

We usually hear all of the bad things about the United States Post Office, so I thought I would tell the good thing that happened to me.

Even the rep on Twitter reached out to me and was incredibly professional and helpful.

Next was Fitish itself, I replied the email saying no it wasn’t deliver and it was all my fault. I then told them I had been in contact with the post office and was sure they would be able to help me. They then sent me a reply saying keep them informed of the outcome.

Great customer service, it is a small company locally owned by Jenna Owens and she is fantastic as are the people she has hired.

I did go and have my hair done yesterday, it is now dark red with dark caramel highlights. It looks so awesome! I am so happy with the work Sarah does. Since it was my first real human contact in a while, face to face as it were, we both talked a lot. We talked about how unusual my hair it, I have fine, thick, curly hair, which is strange, usually curly hair is coarse, fine hair is thin. So yay me for another strange thing about me.

I then went to Target, while checking out I got a hot flash, while wearing a mask. Let me tell you, that was the most uncomfortable I have ever been! A hot flash is bad enough, but in a mask it is even worse, because I started to sweat, which made the air wet in the mask. I have Pleurisy, so this is not a good atmosphere for me. As soon as I hit the door I tore that thing off and filled my lungs with fresh air.
With the mandate of masks everywhere now I don’t even know what to do. The mask I had on was a little thicker, so I am going to get a thin material mask for my next outing.

I hope you all have a great day, shop Fitish, they are awesome and their customer service is incredible.

Dean, Luke and Everything In Between

I’m a bad fan, let’s get that out of the way right from the start. Dean Cain is incredibly prolific, I checked on IMDB to see how many things there are of his to watch and this is what I found:

172 credits, as an actor, 172, let that sink in, I don’t have that kind of time!

I admit, I don’t watch the one that is on the CW right now, the Master of Illusion, it’s reality and I’m not a huge fan of reality.

I tried to watch it, but just could not get into it, no offense, it is just not my kind of show.

However, this could work in my favor, bad fan equals great wife, right! Although, Luke Pasqualino is rapidly taking up space in my heart.

He is so incredibly pretty it literally makes my back teeth hurt. I don’t really know what that means but my friend Walter used to say it about pretty men.

So here I sit, the next three days off, what do you have planned, I am so glad you asked.

I am getting my hair done tomorrow and shopping, it will be a big shopping trip as I have to get things for my week with Tess! Very excited that the EIT is coming for her yearly weeklong adventure with Gigi.

We shall do all kinds of fun things, not our normal fun things, but fun nonetheless.

I am currently watching Alias, or rewatching, as I was a huge fan when it had its first run back in 2001. A few takeaways, Jennifer Garner is literally not aging, like at all. No one delivers a scathing line like Victor Garber. I thought I did but he has me beat hands down. I kind of want to hear him say whatever. Just to know if I still own that or if he has me beat on that as well.

So while I am busy watching Alias, I know what you are thinking, I have time to watch all 172 things Dean Cain is in. I don’t, you see after I watch a few episodes of Alias I round out my evening with an episode of The Musketeers. Luke. Always back to Luke.

So there you have it folks, my very interesting life, I am thinking of changing my hair color again. But I really like the dark red with the caramel highlights, so there’s that. I am also going to have her do it curly, and not straighten it. In the summer I can’t fight the curly and it is so humid outside.

I figured out what the headaches were, it is the barometric pressure. When it gets like this it really effects my head, literally.

July is a busy month, Tessa, Alex, my mom and Dean all have birthdays.

I hope you all have a great day and a great week. Of course I will be posting on 4th of July. I love this country and my family has personally sacrificed a lot to this country. Beginning in 1774, naturally if feel the need to express that love and pay homage to the ones that came before me and all that was sacrificed so I can live the life I have.

The Greatness That is Joss Whedon

I made a decision Thursday evening, nay, a commitment, I was watching the current episode of Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. and it made me want to watch the first Avengers movie. But I felt I had to earn it, so I started with Ironman and worked my way towards The Avengers, Earths Mightiest Heroes.

I still laugh in all of the appropriate places and get goosebumps when the team is shown altogether for the first time, suited up. It’s a magical time and place, almost like Tahiti.

What makes it so magical you ask, I’m so glad you did, it is Joss Whedon of course. He injects the right amount of humor, horror, fun, adventure and gives us heroes with flaws and it is all perfection.

They are all unapologetically human, even Thor, who is Asgardian, they all bicker and fight and are snarky and sarcastic and in the end have each others back. Just like family.

Joss writes amazing female characters, from Buffy to Willow, Cordelia, Fred, River, Kaylee, Inara, Zoe, Faith, Echo, Sierra, Whiskey and Adele. So from the beginning I knew he was going to do Black Widow justice, and he did, she was smart, funny, strong, intuitive and inventive. She can think on the fly and can make the bad guys hurt.

You can see Joss’s influence throughout the whole movie, one of my favorite lines is “he’s adopted.” Simple, but works and is funny, I still laugh.

If you have not watched this movie I suggest you bone up on Buffy, Angel, Firefly, The Dollhouse and yes, Agents of SHIELD, then watch all of the Marvel movies that come before The Avengers. It might take you a few weeks but I think you will enjoy it more.

You can also see Joss’s influences in Endgame and Infinity War. It’s the humor, it is trademark Whedon, you cannot have such heavy movies without the humor, otherwise you come out of the theater felling like you have been beaten down.

I think if I ever met Joss Whedon I would just pass out, it would be far worse than meeting Dean Cain or Scott Baio.

He is not a crush, he is an intellectual crush, which is much worse when it comes to meeting someone.

Speaking of crushes, I am in a Twitter war with someone over Luke Pasqualino, I shall win, of course. When I say Twitter war, I mean fun back and forth banter over an actor. I will win of course. Of course.

This next week will be a short one with the holiday, then next week I shall be spending it with Tessa.

I hope you all have a great day and enjoy some television! Go, learn about Joss and watch his greatness unfold in front of you! Oh and may I suggest his rendition of Much Ado About Nothing, that was awesome! I’m a big fan of Shakespeare as well and he did that play justice.

As usual any comments, questions or criticisms can be sent to me at Peace out peeps!


The Fight Continues

Since my last post I have had several suggestions in my fight to regain my semblance of normalcy with the battle against menopause.

Such an ugly word, isn’t there a better one? I mean I feel like I am battle to keep who I am, to keep the enemy at bay. To keep my standing as Empress of the Universe! Or at least Angie World.

I asked a friend of mine, Amy, who is just genius at finding natural armor against any fight known in the human world. She had a few suggestions, I also received suggestions from another friend from what her mom had done in this battle. It is not something we need to fight alone, the word itself, due to it’s ugliness, confines us in an alone atmosphere. The word that cannot be said in polite company, the one that makes people cringe. No more I say, let’s normalize this! It happens to ever single woman on the face of the planet!

Which begs the next question, does it happen on other planets? I hope I live long enough to find out, I digress, here are some of the things I am trying. Mind you I just bought them yesterday as that was my normal store trip. I shall report again in one week, we shall take this one week at a time. Here goes:

Organic yams (not the first time I have heard this, great suggestion)

Pre-natal vitamins, this is a first I have not heard that before.

A combination of peppermint and clary sage essential oils in a roll bottle.

Phytoestrogen complex, this I had never heard of, I went to Whole Foods and was directed to the brand EstroPause. I bought that, will report back.

Maca powder, in smoothies. Not sure what this does, but I am willing to try it.

I also found, at Whole Foods something called Nighttime Comfort, it is supposed to help with the hot flashes at night.

I will take pictures of everything I bought, except the yams, I hope you all know what that looks like, and put them on this post. I have also put an order in for the Doterra LLV supplements.

Also a diet high in healthy fats and less carbs, which I do already.

Give me a week, we shall see if I am back to my feisty self, on another front I am getting my week with Tess.

I shall have her week after next, I am very excited, we will not have our normal adventures but I do have a few surprises to make our time memorable.

I found a Twinkie maker! How cool is that! It has recipes and we will shop for the ingredients and make them. Hopefully some family members can join us for the Twinkie making, that would be lovely.

I finished the last episode of Eureka this morning, I had forgotten how it ended, it was satisfying. Some series do not end on a satisfying note, but this one did.

I hope you all have a great weekend and a fantastic week.

The Forbidden Topic

I’m going to do it, I’m going to talk about the thing that makes people so uncomfortable. When you say this word they squirm, fidget and change the subject.

Menopause, it is killing me, I have survived a lot in my lifetime and this is the thing that is going to do me in.

I seriously dread getting my electric bill this month, I am setting my thermostat to 66 degrees at night.

I still wake up with hot flashes, 4 to 5 a night, I can’t remember the last time I got a good nights sleep.

I have a few during the day, those are bearable, the ones at night are the killer ones.

Also, my left hip flexer hurts at night, burning pain, the only thing that makes it any better are my sleep pants. Which are compression pants, if I don’t wear them I wake up in sever, burning pain.

But when I wear them, the hot flashes are worse, so it is a horrible catch 22.

Let’s move on to the headaches, I am getting headaches now behind my right ear. It is a weird pain, that lasts about 30 seconds. Those thirty seconds are searing, it’s crazy, I don’t understand what is happening to me.

Let’s move on to the weight gain, I walk/run twice a day, I do lifts with a 25lb kettle bell in-between calls.

I gain weight if I eat, I gain weight if I don’t, I’m tired all of the time because I cannot get a good nights sleep.

I will tell you this, my hair is full and thick, thanks to all of the collagen I am consuming and the Fitish hair serum.

So there’s that positive, but everything else, it’s insane.

Thank God I am going through this alone, I don’t even know how I would survive if there were anyone else here.

How do women do it? I don’t even know because no one talks about it! It’s not like child birth where everyone is dying to tell you their story. This is such a taboo subject, I don’t know why.

I need other women to tell me how they did it, I really don’t want to do synthetic hormones but I am at my wits end and am ready to just tell the dr to patch me up.

On another note, I finished what is out of the series Our Girl, it is on Brit Box. It has Luke Pasqualino in it, one of my new friends on Twitter suggested it. She is brilliant, the show is brilliant, he really isn’t in that many of the episodes. It kept my attention even when he wasn’t in the episodes. It is that good, I highly recommend it, it is on Amazon Prime for part of the seasons, the others you have to get Brit Box for it.

Right now I am rewatching Eureka, I love that show, it is really fun. I highly recommend that as well.

I also got to see a picture of Dean Cain training to be a police officer. That is a good look on him, I am completely torn in my loyalties, let’s face it, Luke is way too young for me, but Dean seems out of reach as well.

This may be the menopause talking but I may have overreached in my goal of marriage. Nah.

It’s still doable, as I am not dead yet, I hope you all have a great week, I would love to hear any stories of how you survived menopause.


Since it is Father’s Day I’d like to share what I call Foyisms, they are the things my dad would say. He was incredibly wise and very funny, everything came with a dose of humor. So sit back and enjoy a few Foyisms:

Its better to laugh than to cry. He lived this one, he would find the humor in almost everything.

This is not Thumper, for goodness sake stop yelling! This was after he brought a skinned rabbit in the house for my mother to cook.

Don’t let the sun set on your anger.

You can call me anything, just call me in time for dinner.

You can just get glad in the same britches you got mad in.

Don’t eat any worms! (as I was leaving the house mad, in case you are not familiar with this one, there was an old song: Nobody likes me, everybody hates me I’ll just go out and eat some worms).

Quit putting on war paint and get in the car, we’re going to be late for church. (war paint was makeup)

Speaking of:

All of that war paint is going to stain your face that color.

If you put on that war paint no one will recognize you

And my ultimate favorite:

If you don’t behave I will throw away your war paint.

Stand up for those not able to stand up for themselves.

If you follow Jesus he will not lead you off of a cliff, the way your friends will. (Tammi he wasn’t referring to you, it was Pam.)

You’re the getting in trouble kind of pretty, so no, you cannot leave the house with that boy I don’t know.

And after I got my first job, if you don’t have anything to do, pick up a rag and clean, they are not paying you to look pretty. (They weren’t for the record, it was TG&Y)

Those are just a few, I miss my dad and his wisdom, I miss him a lot, some days more than most.

He didn’t have to be my dad, he chose to be my dad, and he was the best dad.

Happy Father’s day to all of the dads out there, may your children remember your witticisms long after you are gone.


Dean Who?

The summer before 5th grade, when I was 10, I read The Three Musketeers by Alexandre Dumas for the first time. I was convinced I was going to travel to France and become the first girl Musketeer. No one had the heart to tell me about the French Revolution, there was no king, hence no Musketeers. When I found out I was so mad, how dare they have a revolution before I could become a sword wielding  champion.

Since then I have loved every movie or show depicting the Musketeers. There is one I just discovered on Hulu, it is called simply The Musketeers. I must say it is well done, of course anything with Peter Capaldi as Cardinal Richelieu is nothing short of brilliant.

I met him, have I told you that? Peter Capaldi, he was super nice and didn’t make me feel dorky at all.

I digress, this particular show has an actor playing D’Artagnan is so amazingly pretty. I am telling you he has me saying Dean who? He has perfect hair, just enough scruffiness and plays D’Artagnan perfectly. Dean is the prettiest man in the universe (Superman duh) but this guy, he has earth.

He was always my favorite character, self-assured in his youthful exuberance, loyal to the king and so very pretty. Did I mention that? This is a BBC production, the actor is British, I am almost ready to go to England and find him.

Luke Pasqualino is his name, he is of Italian descent, I looked him up.

He was also in Battlestar Galactica: Blood and Chrome, I thought I recognized him while I was watching the show.

Watching the show and remembering my time in training for becoming a Musketeer, yes, I learned to sword fight, made me think about everything I wanted to become and didn’t.

There were so many things I wanted to do, Musketeer, intrepid girl reporter, singer (that one was never going to happen), a Solid Gold dancer, dancing on American Bandstand and Soul Train. The last two were real possibilities if I had been born sooner, but alas it was not to be. None of my childhood career choices came to pass, trust me, I never dreamed of tech support.

As one does when they take stock of all of their failed dreams I began to become morose. Then I thought back to the one thing I had wanted to become since I was 5 years old. A mom, I always knew I wanted to be a mom, and I did that.

I am so proud of how my children turned out, I like to think I was an ok mom. Anyone who thinks they are a perfect parent, you’re not, we all make mistakes along the way. Except my mom, she was the total exception, I feel like we should all feel that way about our moms.

I hope my children think I did an ok job, I told them while they were growing up that if I messed up too badly I’d pay for their therapy when they were grown.

None have taken me up on that, yet, so far, so good.

In conclusion, watch The Musketeers, I need someone to talk to about the show!