Angie World

There is a topic that I am passionate about; it is something that actually got me an invitation to leave the singles group at the church I attended. Every week I would attend the class and listen to the people, “Oh if only God would bring someone into my life it would be perfect.” This was from men and women alike. One day I couldn’t take it anymore, I had held my tongue for a long time, actually my friends would have been proud of me. I stood up and said being in a relationship is hard work, it is not easy if it is done the right way, you are not a half of a whole. God created whole human beings and until you can wake up every day and ask God, ok, what are we doing today? And be completely happy with where you are in life, then God will not bring the person you are meant to be with into your life. If you are meant to be with someone. It is a hard truth; you have to be happy with your singleness and be whole with who you are before you can give any part of yourself to another person.
Something I saw yesterday bothered me equally as much, where have all of the good men gone. Well, ladies, allow me to answer, they are under your noses. They are the ones you ignore in order to have the thrill of the bad boy, the man who treats you like, well, for lack of a better word, crap. Until you look at the ones who are not Brad Pitt pretty and the ones that are, well, slightly dorky, or maybe completely dorky and geeky, after all they rule the world, and continue to look at the men who are aloof, distant, who play hard to get emotionally, and let’s face it, we all want what we can’t have, then you will continue to bemoan the fact there are no “good” ones around.
I believe I am unusual in the fact I never looked, I was completely good with my singleness, reveled in it, as a matter of fact. I didn’t need anyone in my life. Once I went to a psychiatrist, after the death of my mother, as we were talking, he asked me if I wanted to get married again. I said, “Oh God No!” He put down his pen, looked at me and asked why not. I told him, while I was not opposed to dating and getting married, I just had a very full, busy life. If God wants me to date, and eventually get married, He will have to bring the man over, hit me in the head and say this one dummy. He told me I was the most mentally healthy person he had ever met, which made me completely unusual.
Here is my advice to the singles out there, get to know who you are, what you like and don’t like, much like Julia Roberts in “The Runaway Bride”, taste all of the styles of eggs to figure out which is your favorite. And when you are “whole” and “healed” from the trauma of past bad relationships and completely satisfied with being single, then ZAP.
If anyone hates me after this, so be it, but I stand by my thoughts. Be complete, and then you will be happy.

Today is the day, the day my baby gets all four of her wisdom teeth out. She is lucky in a way, they didn’t do that when I was her age, they took them out one at a time. It was brutal to have to keep going back for that! She is coming here and I am going with her. I am so happy to be able to do that.
Yesterday I spent the day organizing my Mary Kay products, I will be honest, I didn’t even know what all I had! Now it is all organized and I am ready to go. Also yesterday I got all caught up on my television shows and had a late lunch/early dinner with Alex and he and I got all caught up. All in all, a good day.
I was watching an episode of Sabrina the Teenage Witch yesterday and it made me remember when I was young how I wanted to be a witch, it all started with the Archie comics, where Sabrina was introduced, then it was Witchy Poo on H.R. Pufnstuff, I even had striped socks like she did. Then Samantha on Bewitched and then on and on. I wanted to be able to twitch my nose, snap my fingers or do whatever to make things happen magically. I grew up, realized that was not going to happen, if I want things to happen I have to work for them. So, work I did, work I do and work I will continue to do to make things happen. Every day you do the possible so that in the end the impossible will have happened.

I am fully caffeinated and getting back into the real world. I have just spent three days in complete Mary Kay bliss, learning about new products and seeing all of the great new fall colors! I cannot wait to show them to my existing customers and the new ones I will be helping.
It has been so long since I wrote; it seems forever, where to start. On Friday Tessa came for a visit, we had the best time, of course she spent the night. The next day, Saturday, we went to McDonalds, where she became the instant ruler of the playground. Even the older children did whatever she wanted, it was so fascinating to watch, not a shy bone in that girls body. You can tell her parents have instilled confidence and amazing self esteem in this child.
Sunday was spent getting everything ready to go to Mary Kay Seminar, my outfits, shoes and what hairstyle on what day. It was so good seeing friends I only get to see once a year and great to catch up with the ones that live here and I don’t get to see that often. It was also great making new friends. All in all an amazing time.
Of course after Seminar ended it was the annual tradition of lunch with Jess, since he works downtown we have made this an annual tradition, well, annual when my Seminar ends on a Wednesday, if it ends on a Saturday he is obviously not at work.
I then received a phone call yesterday afternoon that an issue I have been working on since the middle of May has been resolved, in the employees favor! Praise God! A totally amazing win, this has been such an emotional ride, a great outcome. Re-entry into the “real’ world could not have been any greater!
Well here is to a great week, a great day and a great August! Check out my Mary Kay website! The link is to the right!

I will be spending the next three days in Mary Kay world, check out my website by clicking on Mary Kay to the left of the page. Be back to blogging on Thursday!

Today is my mother’s birthday, she would be 97, and she was born in 1913 in a small town in Oklahoma. She grew up in Love County, Oklahoma. An appropriate place for my mom to grow up considering how much love she gave out to others and how she inspired others to love in return. I miss you mom, I miss your wisdom, your acceptance, your humor and above all your unconditional love. I know without a doubt you are having the best party with your Daddyo (that is what she called my dad) up there. Eat a slice of cake for me, tell everyone there I said hello and party like it is 1999!

We are the total sum of our experiences; an incredibly powerful statement, a very true statement. I firmly believe however, that it is our reactions to our experiences in life that tells who we are at our core. I see people around me, I see how they react to what the world throws at them, some of them I am very impressed with, some, not so much. I will not discuss anyone I actually know here. I will discuss celebrities, first let’s take Lindsey Lohann, so totally not impressed by how she handles her situations, we all know she had abysmal parenting, however, people who use their bad upbringing on their adult behavior are, well for lack of a better word, sad. Marshall Mathers or as everyone in the world knows him, Eminem, had the most brutal childhood, he was abused and abandoned by his mother, raised by a grandmother that was little better than the mother. He has channeled that anger into a lucrative music career; he also has full custody of his daughter and niece and is raising them, from all accounts, in a loving, protective environment. He has risen above his circumstances and how he persevered and flourished is nothing short of miraculous. 50 Cent, his mother was 15 when she had him and she made the decision to sell drugs instead of going on welfare, strange choices, I know, but there you have it. Curtis, as he was called back then, followed in his mother’s footsteps, as that was the only example he had, while dealing he himself became a parent and decided he did not want his child to follow in his footsteps, he stopped selling drugs and started writing music. He wanted to set a better example for his child. I find it admirable that he himself never took drugs and was able to leave that life behind.
We all face adversity, maybe not as extreme as the cases I have presented, maybe some have faced similar circumstances and they themselves have taken their experiences and turned it into something positive. I know that I have faced great challenges in my life, I have strived and continue to strive to not allow them to steer me in a direction that is going to be detrimental to me and the people I love. I have often said I would not change anything that happened to me, the things that were beyond my control, because they have made me who I am today, I really like who I am. I wonder if any of the people I have mentioned would change anything. By changing the things that have happened to us, it changes who we are, I don’t want to change who I am, I like who I am. The only thing I would change if I could, I had no control over and I could not change it as it involves the death of someone close to me. I have no control over life and death.
I hope everyone embraces their life, react in a way that is positive, accept change as a good thing and above all, know that there is someone higher to look to in good times and bad. He doesn’t just want to hear the difficult times in our lives; He also wants to hear about the positives.

I am mentally exhausted, I have been working on an issue for a Union Member since the middle of May, and I sincerely hope we are getting somewhere.
I have made a decision, when I get back from Mary Kay Seminar I am going to do the cleansing diet for 5 days that means no caffeine for 5 days. I will begin this cleanse on a Friday, so the drying out from no caffeine cold turkey will not affect my working relationship with anyone at the office. The dogs might notice it, but hopefully no humans will. Seriously I do not want to do this; however, I really want to lose 90 lbs. maybe even 100. I want people to look at me and say, Wow, Angie, eat a burger. That is seriously my only goal in life right now. Next to finding what I am passionate about.
On that front I have not really made great strides, a co-worker had a great idea since I am passionate about coffee, he suggested that I get a camera crew and film me going out in search of great coffee around the area, then sell the idea to the food network or one of those channels and perhaps travel the world in search of coffee.
That is a great idea, however it circles back to the losing about 300 lbs, since the camera adds 10 pounds, and I don’t want people to look at me and say, how many cameras were on you. Great line stolen from Friends.

I wish I could have stayed in bed and slept today, it has been a rough week sleep wise. I go to bed around 7:30 but then I have been waking up at 10:30, so I take a 3 hour nap, and then have a rough time going back to sleep. I am going to try taking a nap today and then going to bed around 8:30 to see if that helps with the situation.
I am so looking forward to next week and being in my pink bubble that is how we refer to Mary Kay world. I know this is going to be hard for people who are not Mary Kay Consultants to believe, but it is three days of no one yelling, no one cursing, not a harsh word is said and everyone is happy to be in that place. 10,000 women in one place and everyone is happy. Think about it, why can’t we be that happy in our corporate job world? I’m going to tell you, it is because of our mission statement in Mary Kay, Do unto Others What You Would Have Them Do unto You, yes we abide by the golden rule. We follow the God first, family second and business third rule, when you put things in the correct order then all falls into place.
I love, love, love my Mary Kay business, I associate with the best women, that encompasses my customers as well as my business associates. Not to mention the skin care products are phenomenal. I have been using Mary Kay since Elizabeth was 6 months old, she is now 21. I feel I don’t look my age and I credit Mary Kay and good genetics.
I got to talk to Jeffrey last night, he has a very busy life so we don’t get to talk that often, and when we do we always have great conversations. Last night it was about his beloved Texas Rangers and fair weather fans. Total greatness!

I didn’t get to watch all of the Real Housewives of New Jersey this morning; however the part I did see, all I can say is why is CPS not coming to get Danielle Staub? She has got to be the worst mother on television. Is anyone else appalled by her behavior?
Today is Stacy’s birthday, happy happy birthday Stacy, I hope it is an awesome day and filled with everything you want it to be.
I woke up congested and wonky, a little out of it, I have to admit if I did not have something incredibly important to do at work today I would have been tempted to call in and take the day off. However, I do have all next week off, I have my Mary Kay Seminar. I am so very excited about that! I look forward to this time of year every, well, year. It is held in downtown Dallas in case you didn’t know and there are five different Seminars they last 3 days each. Mine starts Monday and goes to Wednesday. So yes, I took all week off. Also on Friday Elizabeth is having her wisdom teeth out, so of course I want to be with her for that.
Well yesterdays post was a long one so I won’t bore you too much today!

I just finished watching Julie and Julia; again, I love that movie. This time I watched the special feature, in it, one of the commentators, and I don’t remember which one, says that she hopes this movie inspires women to find what they are passionate about and pursue it.
As you all know that is something I have been trying to figure out for a while now. No one seems to know what it is that I am good at, and quite frankly if I don’t know how can I expect others to know. I do know that I love shopping, I am good at finding bargains and I am good at knowing what looks good on someone else. I also know what looks good on me, but no one will pay for that. I know that I love to write, I love putting words to paper and having others read what I write. I know that is a bit narcissistic, but that is part of me. I know that I love making others feel good about themselves, I love fighting for what I believe in. I also love fighting for the person who needs me to stand of for them. I love argument, I love singing (that is totally not a career option unless I want to be the next William Hung, which I do not) I love movies, watching them, not making them. I love comic books, and superheroes, flawed superheroes are the best.
What am I passionate about? Besides Dean Cain. I am passionate anbout righting the wrongs of the world, or at least my little corner of the world. I hate injustice, mostly injustice for the working people. Really I hate injustice for single mothers. I would love to see job re-training for women who have been stay at home moms and suddenly find themselves thrust into the role of breadwinner. That was me at one time, I didn’t have help or any where to turn, I just had me, while some think that might have been enough, it would have been really great to have had someone to just say I think you would be good at this and here is the training program for that job. Now I am not saying I did not have friends who were there and completely supportive, I did, I had amazing friends. One in particular who went through the divorce and subsequent child custody battle with me, there at the courthouse every day until it was over. I still get emotional thinking that I don’t’ have a clue of why I deserve such a friend, just so grateful she was there.
But back to the job thing, I think that when you have been a stay at home mom and the job you were originally trained for doesn’t exist any longer that there should be some type of re-training program. This does not only apply to the women who find themselves single after divorce but the widowed as well. It is a tough world out there when you are alone.
Before I got married, I was a typographer, I loved that job, I went to school for two years to learn it. It was not the highest paying job in the entire world, but I loved doing it. That career no longer exists thanks to desktop publishing. I was obsolete. Now, I work at a job, that most days I like, I like the pay a lot, I like helping people, that is not what depresses me or stresses me, it is not the job itself.
I would love to find something I am passionate about and the people I work with are passionate about it as well.