February is not going the way I want it to, it hasn’t in several years, I must ask myself what I am doing that angers God so much He withholds snow. That is the big question; I might just have a pity party on my birthday, who wants to join me? No one? Alright then, cake for one.
I am enjoying the cold weather; I do love the crispness of the air, the smell of rain, the season for boots and sweater dresses. Of course in my advancing age I will probably have to give up sweater dresses in the near future. Those are a young persons game, not an old woman.
There is something I feel compelled to talk about, Maria Kang; the fit mom on Facebook that people seem to think it is ok to shame. I think she rocks; she did not use her three children as an excuse to let herself go, she has openly admitted she fought the battle of an eating disorder. She has worked hard to become fit, healthy, and is helping other women to achieve the same.
I wish I had the dedication she has, she does not spend hours a day exercising, this is a misnomer, I wish people would actually read what she did and continues to do to achieve and keep her toned, HEALTHY body.
She does it so she can live a long healthy life, to see her boys grow up and see their children as well. Why on earth does that give people the right to ridicule her? Do you feel guilty that you do not do all you can do to become healthy?
Have you actually seen the calendar she has done? Featuring other mothers who have fought their battles and are winning? I admit, I have not done all I can do; as a result I have a hideous, unhealthy body.
No one knows what I look like with no clothes on and they never will, as it is not pretty. It is my own fault, I did not eat healthy during any of my pregnancies, ok, with Elizabeth I tried, Arby’s called my name. I am weak.
I didn’t exercise consistently, I ate junk and crap, the thing is, I didn’t grow up on that stuff. I grew up farm fed, healthy, fresh fruits and vegetables. There was very little in the way of junk food in our home.
I know what to do to get fit and healthy, I need to stop with the excuses and just do it, in the famous words of Nike. I need to get rid of my excuses; I need to follow my BBFF’s fine example. He and I are a lot alike, in the fact that we do not enjoy working out, but he has done it! He made the commitment to get healthy and fit, he has worked and worked and not only feels better he looks fantastic! Good job BBFF I admire your commitment and never wavering stick-to-itiveness, yes it’s a word.
So, this year, my 50th, is my year, the year I get my life under control, it is said your outer environment is a direct reflection of your inner conflict. If you live in chaos, uncontrolled appetites, you have inner issues that need to be dealt with. My outer chaos is reflected in my eating habits and lack of commitment to exercise. This year that changes.
You will see a new me this year, 2014, you will see a slimmer, healthier, fitter Angie in Angieworld.
Ashley’s Journey
Last night I watched another episode of My 600 lb Life, this time it was Ashley’s story, she was well over 600 pounds and young. In her 20’s, her whole family was heavy, she was the first to decide to do something about it. Now her family was not as heavy as she, but they were and are hefty. Ashley did not do as well as Henry, I don’t know if it is age or mindset or the environmental factors. At the end of the show she was down by 345 pounds, she should have been at her goal weight, her loss was slow due to her not eating right. She had two skin removal surgeries along the way. However her legs, her legs are what I cannot get out of my mind. The doctor even said her legs looked the same as when she weighed over 600 pounds. He said that he could probably remove another 30 pounds of skin off of her calves alone. This show is enough to scare anyone into eating right and not allowing themselves to get to this situation.
Her mother was absolutely horrible, I have never seen a mother behave like this, she was constantly making fun of her daughter and saying how she was going to have pie and cake at Thanksgiving and how Ashley couldn’t have any. Then she would just cackle, yes, cackle is the only word to describe the sound coming out of her mouth. This is a woman who is around 300 pounds if she is an ounce. I was yelling at the television, What the Heck woman! She should have been on a restrictive diet. In the end Ashley was actually coaching a girls softball team and being active and productive in her life. I would love to see where she is today.
Watching these shows gives me resolve in my own weight loss journey to continue on and yes do the dreaded exercising that will tone my legs and arms and give me abs that look good. I am terrified of being 600 pounds, it is one of my greatest fears. Perhaps an unreasonable fear, but it is mine.
I will make good choices today, wether is is with food, my outlook, my job and my physical activity. I hope everyone has a great day and chooses to be healthy, happy and active!
Angie World 