I know I haven’t visited in a while but I was a little busy. Busy on TikTok, done judge until you’ve seen William White.
I’ve thought of many different things to write about and then I go to sleep and the mood is never there to actually write. Today the mood has hit.
It is a beautiful summer morning here in North Texas, not too hot, cloud coverage and a slight breeze. I am sitting on my back patio with my coffee enjoying God’s handiwork.
Yesterday I went shopping, I really need some summer tops and Target has the worst clothes ever this summer. It is very literally blessed be the fruit in there.
So I went to TJ Maxx, they had some really cute summer tops. I found two I really liked, so I bought them.
The thing is they are sleeveless, and I fully intend on wearing them without a shirt over them. I am daring to show my arms!
What is the big deal you ask, I’m so glad you asked. I have always hated my arms, even when I was at my smallest I have hated them. And here is the weird thing, no one has ever said a word to me about them. So it’s not like someone said something and I took it to heart.
It has always been me, we are always hardest on ourselves, about everything. It begs the question why are we that way. Why can’t we be kind to ourselves and love us the way God loves us?
I don’t have answers just more questions, I will tell you this, since becoming menopausal I don’t care what anyone will think anymore.
Partially, of course I care what I look like, but I like comfort as well and these hot flashes are no joke.
Last weekend I went to a store I loathe, I won’t say the name. However, I live in a small town and it is the only store here. I just needed a few things and quite honestly didn’t feel like driving to my usual place.
Well in that store I started to have a hot flashes and thought this is how people end up on the website for this store. They are having a hot flash and start taking off clothes. I did not but I did hurry and pay for my purchases and got the heck out of there.
So here is my lesson of the day, be kind to yourself but also take care of yourself. Don’t use self love as an excuse to not be your best. But also do not let it be an excuse to hate any part of you. You are a work in progress, and only you can determine your outcome.
As usual, hello China, and any comments, questions or criticisms can be left here or sent to me at firstname.lastname@example.org.