I have learned a lot writing this blog, I have learned if people behave badly they will try and justify it, just a word, nothing justifies bad behavior. Apologize for the behavior, if you are truly sorry, if you are not, well then that is between you and God. I would like everyone to remember, God can see through roofs, he knows what you are doing at all times. A little disconcerting I admit, however, it does keep me from going through life with no worries to consequences.
I have learned that we all have a story, and sometimes our stories are similar, and sometimes my story has helped someone. Whether it was to find acceptance, or to find a way to forgive, move on, or relief that they were not the only ones. When you meet someone for the first time, remember, there is more to them than what you can see. People have layers, like onions, and like onions when you peel them, sometimes you cry and sometimes it smells. Figuratively, not literally, if you literally peel someone you will go to jail. Remember that!
I have learned that not everyone thinks I am brilliant, this I do not understand as I believe I am incredibly brilliant. For those of you who don’t know me, that was tongue in cheek, some might actually think I believe I am the best thing going. Oh, wait, I do, I believe I am fearfully and wonderfully made and God did some really good work with me. I believe we should all wake up, look in the mirror and proclaim that today is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it. And take a good look at ourselves and appreciate what God has created. I know I have my moments of self doubt; however, on the whole I have a healthy sense of self and appreciate my intellect, looks and personality. I think everyone should take stock of themselves, really look at the good aspects of who you are, if the bad outweighs the good in you, change it. It won’t be easy, but you can do it, I have belief in you. You can do it.
I have learned not everyone believes men and women can be true friends, however, I am here to tell you that is not true. It takes work to have this kind of relationship with the opposite gender, but it can be done. My BBFF and I are shining examples of this, I would not trade our friendship for anything, it is worth any effort put forth. I could not ask for a better friend, someone that listens to me and gives me the male point of view. It is not always what I want to hear, however it is always what I need to hear. I believe God has given me a very special friendship, and has blessed this friendship. Try it, you might be pleasantly surprised. But you can’t have my BBFF; he is very busy placating me.
I have learned I can say anything I want here and no one can say squat, there I said it, in this realm I am the Empress, I rule supremely. If you don’t like it, don’t read, move on to another blog. Being able to write whatever comes to mind is incredibly freeing, everyone should try it, I am not anonymous here, my friends and family read this. They however are used to my honesty, I rarely hold anything back, I have learned tact over the years, so what I say is softened somewhat, however, it is still truth.
If you have learned anything from reading me I would love to know, please feel free to comment.
Renegades, Rebels and Rogues
Well here we are people the last day of 2012, I cannot say this year has been kind to me, however some really amazing things have happened. I am on the radio! Can you believe that! I still cannot believe my friend Shanon asked me to do the show with her. I am awestruck that someone had that much confidence in my ability to talk. Thank you so much Shanon for giving me such an amazing opportunity, I don’t have the words to express how much your belief in me means.
The Irishman was sick for almost all of 2012, we go into 2013 hopeful for continued recovery, it has been a rough year in that respect. But God is good and ever present and I believe led him to the right doctor to get him on the road to recovery.
My children are all healthy and doing well, I am so proud of all three, Jeffrey, Elizabeth and Alex; I literally do not know what kind of life I would have without them. They make everything better, when I see a text or call from one of them I smile and happily answer, except when I am at work Alex! I could not resist that, he knows what I mean.
As I look back at the past year I not only see the struggles, I see where I have been blessed beyond measure, I have my health, I have my wits, most of the time and I have amazing friends. I still do not understand what I ever did to deserve such amazing people in my life I am just grateful God saw fit to bring them to me.
I go into 2013 ever hopeful, not only for my life and the lives of my children, but for my friends and for the world. I go into 2013 with a positive attitude, with prayer for a better life and for continued growth, spiritually not physically, and with a renewed determination to make myself the best I can be. Without going into the Marines.
In my family the number 13 is a good luck number, we never really bought into the whole superstitious thing; we like to turn things around. I can only imagine what a whole year of 13 will bring.
So for Christmas Elizabeth gave me an ITunes gift card to download my two favorite albums that she stole. Tracey Lawrence and Kiss, well I have downloaded Tracey Lawrence and I cannot stop listening to it. I know what you are thinking, isn’t this the same singer that beat his wife in a hotel room in the ‘90’s. Yes, yes it is, however if the world can forgive Chris Brown the week after he beat the living daylights out of Rhianna, I figure it is time for us to forgive Tracey.
There is one song in particular that I love, Rebels, Renegades and Rogues, I have always considered myself a rebel and renegade, not so much a rogue. But what truly makes me a rebel, you ask, that is a good question. Well I have always gone against societal norms, as in I was and continue to be a girl nerd who knows fashion. An unusual combination, or used to be, not so much anymore, turns out I was a trail blazer, who knew. As for the renegade, well, I have never done what was expected, I drive fast, I rail against authority, not really, the last part, the first yes. Anyway if you are a country music fan I highly suggest you give Tracey Lawrence a try, some of my favorites are Alibis, Texas Tornado and If the Good Die Young.
I shall sign off for now, the next time I talk to you all it will be 2013, a new year, a new beginning, a new hope. See what I did there, I snuck a Star Wars reference in there, BBFF that was for you.
Welcome Back Television Favorites
Since the new tour change, they have decided everyone should move desks, well almost everyone. I am one of the ones that moved, a little disconcerting I must admit, I am not a big fan of change, however this time they allowed us to take our CPU’s with us. That is huge as we all have our favorites and our way of setting up our computers.
I always say when they move me I get to sit by the most interesting people and get to know them in a different way. This time is proving that once again, I am now sitting across from a man named Carl. Carl is one of the nicest people here, along with that he is funny, smart, good at the job and just a joy to be around. I know for a fact Victoria is jealous that I now get to sit by Carl and she is on the other side of the building. I know I am going to enjoy sitting next to him for the next 4 months, or until they decide to move us again.
Last night was filled with television greatness, from How I Met Your Mother, Bones, Warehouse 13 to Castle. I have yet to get to watch Revolution, I do have it recorded, so no fears that I will not get to see it. Castle came out of the gate strong, great season opener, tied up some loose ends nicely, and gave us great things to look forward to. Cannot wait to have full discussion with BBFF today, I know we have a lot to discuss. So happy he is no longer watching the horribleness that is DWtS, I now have him hooked on WH13, finally, I have been trying to get him to watch this show since forever.
Quick health update on the Irishman, he is starting to improve, his appetite is improving, he is now eating whole loaves of bread, which he needs to stop as they are $7.00 a loaf. However it is good to see him eating, I don’t think he has gained any weight back yet, however he seems to have stopped losing weight. Sometimes it is hard to be his fiancé, I so want to lose like that; I would give anything to be able to do that. Anyway, his color is much improved and he is becoming more like his old animated self, good to see.
Angie World 