Scattered Thoughts

I sit here staring at the whiteness of it all, the blank page, the nemesis of anyone who considers themselves a writer. While I know I am not a writer in terms of being published, you must admit I am prolific in my attempts at being a writer.

This morning there is a lot on my mind, maybe too many things to choose from, do I write about the dream I had last night? I was with the cast of The Walking Dead only it wasn’t a show, it was real and we were all living in a school and I had Tessa with me. We had to stay in the classrooms in the middle during the night and not turn on any lights as it attracts the zombies. Or do I write about my feelings of inadequacies at being a parent? So many conflicting emotions are warring within me at the point in time.  I continually question every decision I have ever made since becoming a parent. Did I do it all the right way? Did I really do the best I possibly could? So many questions, so many doubts. One thing I never have doubt in, is my children and their ability to overcome, adapt and succeed. They are truly remarkable, I can only take a minimum amount of credit, they were all born with the personalities that they have. The only thing I can take credit for is their strange television viewing habits.

Do I write about my obsessions with superheros? I am continually fascinated by all of them really, I have some that are more loved than others. Superman continues to be a favorite, I have loved him since I was 3 years old, Batman, not the dark knight one, the campy one, I love him, Wonder Woman, I want to be her. Thor, god of thunder come to earth, who doesn’t love that. I continue to this day to be fascinated by them, I know there is some debate regarding DC vs Marvel heroes and heroines, however I love them all.

Since I am so scattered today in my thinking I will sign off for now, tomorrow is a new day, a special day here in America. Where we honor all of our fallen heroes, the real ones, the ones that gave their lives defending our freedoms. More to come tomorrow.

Weather Woes

So many thoughts so little time, I am saving what is really on my mind until this weekend when I have time to give my thoughts proper due. Until then, more vapidness, which you are used to!
Yesterday was another amazing looks day, I am loving the sudden weight loss again, I told you all I had been at a plateau, well that has ended. I look pretty darn good, and yesterday someone told me they thought I was in my mid to late 30’s. A good day indeed my friends, a good day indeed.
I am wearing my new Lucky jeans today with my favorite T-Shirt, as you know I do not wear T-Shirts very often, but my favorite is my Wonder Woman, Supergirl, Batgirl shirt. I love this girl power shirt. I have not worn it in a while, because, well it was supposed to be winter. I am so angry with the weather at this point, where was my winter weather? We could have at least had a few days of below freezing temperature. For those of you who love the warm weather, well summer is going to be your fault. The horrible insect issues we will be having, your fault. I want you all to take full responsibility right now.
Whew, that felt good! Ok, off to finish getting dressed, makeup, hair, lights, ACTION. Oh wait, wrong industry!

Positives

Since I am trying to get back to being myself, I am going to focus on one positive thing a day. Today is my new t-shirt. Yes, I said it; I actually bought a t-shirt, something that I never do. I am not a t-shirt wearing kind of woman. But this one, well this one caught my eye, Elisabeth Hasselbeck was wearing it on the view and I had to have it, immediately. I went onto Google, actually found the shirt and ordered it that night. It came Thursday, and I wore it on Friday. It says girl power and has a picture of Batgirl, Wonder Woman and Supergirl. It is amazing. I am actually going to post a photo on here, something I never do, but you all have to see it! I look amazing in it as well.
As you all probably have figured out if you have read me for any length of time, I am a huge superhero fanatic, and Wonder Woman in particular is my favorite female hero. I have dressed up like her, I have her boots, and I totally rocked that costume. Much to Elizabeth Anne’s embarrassment, but I figure as a mother, it is my job to embarrass my children at least once in their lifetime. Wonder Woman is strong, beautiful, independent, great clothes, kickin’ boots and let’s face it an amazing fashion sense.
Also, on an upbeat note, I won the coffee basket at work yesterday! Of course I only bought $15.00 worth of tickets, but it was totally worth it! So excited, it is a pound of Starbucks Iced-coffee with a Venti size re-fillable container, I cannot wait to go and get the beans ground and begin having my favorite iced coffee at home.
So many positives, so little time to report them, till next time peeps, peace out.