For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future Jeremiah 29:11.
I used to wonder what incredible future God had planned for me. Now I know the life I was living was what He had planned for me. I got to raise the most incredible humans I’ve ever known and I had the best parents. Most people don’t even get that much.
It could have been so much worse, my birth mother could have chosen not to give me up, that would have been a nightmarish life. I could have had different children, I can’t imagine.
I was telling my BBFF a few weeks ago that my ex husband and I should have never married but I wouldn’t change it because I have the most incredible children. He said something so profound that it struck a chord in me. He said sometimes God let’s the wrong people get together to create the humans He needs to be in the world.
I was seriously blown away by that thought. Like I’ve said before I only regret one thing that would have been within my control.
I’ve spent a lot of my life wanting something that God was never going to allow me to have. Looking back on my life I have lived the plans God had for me. It’s enough.
This is the time of year people start to take stock of their year. Mine has been really incredible. I got to travel to Florida to see someone I love get married. I not only got to spend time with some of my oldest friends I got to travel and spend time with my daughter.
I got to meet Dean Cain, which I never thought I’d get to do.
I got to meet some really nice people on Twitter thanks to a little show called Chuck. And I got to meet two of them in person. Bonus.
I got to spend time with friends and family and just be myself. It’s been a good 2019, oh and a certain little boy had started calling me Gigi and I love it.
As this year winds down I look forward to a really fin 2020 with a trip on the books to see aliens and a new grand-nephew.
I hope everyone has had a really great 2019 and I pray you all have a fantastic 2020.