Disappointments

I know, I know, I know, this will seem redundant at first glance. However, I’ve seen new things that add even more nuance to the issue at hand.

Joss Whedon, I grow more disillusioned by the day. Ray Fisher was bad enough, now we have Gal Gadot lending credibility to the bad behavior that went on during the Justice League filming.

First of all Gal Gadot is a real life Wonder Woman. She is an Israeli trained soldier. In real life. She isn’t just a pretty face, she’s the real deal. When Whedon tried to intimidate her, well, she didn’t go meekly into the night.

I know this was published back in February, but I just saw this. Charisma Carpenter’s account of what happened to her on the set of Buffy/Angel. I had long suspected part of it. But to see the whole thing was sickening. I highly suggest you check out her twitter account from February 21st.

After Charisma’s post the floodgates opened. His ex-wife stated in 2017 that he was a serial cheater and a liar. He touts himself as a modern day male feminist. Just look at all of my female characters, he says. But behind the scenes it’s a completely different story.

Amber Benson has hinted at her Whedon induced trauma, as has Michelle Tratenberg. She has said there was a rule he was not allowed to meet with her alone due to his inappropriate behavior with her. She was a minor at the time. What did he do to Harriet the Spy???? Sarah Michelle Gellar has issued a statement saying she would forever be proud to be associated with Buffy the Vampire Slayer, but did not want her name associated with Joss Whedon.

I would love to hear from others, the bigger names, some from the Avengers crew. But perhaps those stars were big enough names that he behaved himself. We may never know, what I do know is that my favorite shows are forever tainted.

Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Angel, The Dollhouse, Firefly, Agents of Shield, the Avengers. All tainted now, Joss Whedon proving that the ones that ring their own bells the loudest have something hiding behind all of the clanging.

Health Answers and Self-Doubt

I had my follow up appointment with my functional nutritionist and it was enlightening. I believe I told you about the blood work she ordered. We had the results and they were shocking.

One’s levels for vitamin D should be between 70 and 100, mine was 110, so I was way too high. My vitamin B12 levels were non-existent. She said she didn’t even know how I had the energy to walk around. It was no wonder exercise didn’t give me energy as I had none to begin with.

So I am stopping the supplement with vitamin D3 and am now on weekly Vitamin B shots for 5 weeks. Then we will test again. I got my first shot today and she said it would take a few days and then I would get a boost of energy.

I am beginning to feel better, the bloating is almost all gone, and I am incorporating real foods into my diet. She also put me on enzymes to help break my food down. Then we will begin to wean me off of the Nexium. It feels good to work towards something, and to finally have some answers.

So on Twitter, where I get a lot of my information, one of my Twitter peeps posted one of those ads for sucker leggings, you know, the ones that advertise that they will “suck” all of your fat in. She said it would be helpful if they actually showed the product on someone that needed the help. I said yes, someone that is a lump like me. She said well you’re not a lump but I get what you are saying. I went on to say some days I feel like I’m the cutest thing in shoe leather and other days I feel like Dear Lord I cannot leave the house.

Then on Facebook, another great source, one of my friends said that for today we should look in the mirror and see how we look in God’s eyes. How He sees us, not as we see ourselves. I thought that was brilliant, because we all have those day, at least I believe most women have those days.

The self doubts about our looks creep in, and all of the noise from the outside world. The ones that have told us from a young age how we should look, what we should wear, the right makeup, the right shoes. The right weight for our height, and yes that one I believe, we should all be healthy, but there comes a point where we have health things we have to take care of that are making us gain weight.

Stop judging, that is the hardest thing to do as women, we all do it, we all look at someone and make a snap judgement. Oh that person is lazy, they don’t work out, or they must eat badly, or, or, or. Sometimes it is that, sometimes it is physical and sometimes it is mental.

I wonder is really beautiful women ever have these self-doubts, the Charisma Carpenters of the world, she really is one of the most beautiful women. I wonder if she has ever looked in the mirror and had self doubts. Or Cindy Crawford, has she ever had a bad hair day?

I am plagued with self doubt, about my looks, my abilities, my parenting, my personality, all of it. But at the end of the day, if I take an inventory, I have a great job, a wonderful place to live, a means to find answers and the best kids on the face of the planet.

I live an incredibly blessed life.

As usual, any comments, questions or criticisms can be left here or sent to me at angie@angieworld.com

Weather Gratefulness and Dean Cain News

Yesterday was a horrible weather day here in the Dallas/Fort Worth area, I am grateful that seemingly no lives were lost. Reports of injuries but no deaths, this is a total praise God day. With the videos of the 18 wheelers that were flung in the air as if they weighed nothing, the tornado that hit the elementary school in Forney, with children inside, only 5 injuries, none life threatening. Yesterday was a miracle people, a flat out miracle, and we should all be grateful. Where I work, we spent two hours in a closet, well four of us were in that closet, some were in the stairwell, bathrooms and a breakroom in the middle of the building. All handled it with humor and patience, most of the time was spent texting loved ones in hard hit areas to find out if they were ok. Yes, they were, one man, his mothers neighbors on either side were hit and the house across the street, hers had minimal damage to the roof, that was it, she was the only one home at the time. The neighbors were all at work, she was not hurt and very little damage to her home. Very grateful indeed.
Tomorrow is my second fake celebrity interview and I am very nervous, I am not going to tell you who it is yet, just know, MAJOR childhood, teenage crush. So excited!
OMG speaking of crush, Dean Cain is making a movie with Charisma Carpenter, how amazingly cool is that! I wish I were her! She tweeted a picture of the two of them, I will say it again he is still the prettiest man I have ever seen in my entire life. I wonder if he still has the Superman costume? I will have to ask him that if I ever work up the nerve to fake interview him.
That’s all for today folks, I am off to work for da man. Bahahahahaha

My Brush with Fame, Thank You @AllCharisma

So, last night, the most exciting thing happened, and yes, I am going to share with you, with some background information. As most of you know, I love Buffy the Vampire Slayer and it’s offshoot Angel, mainly I loved the character Cordelia Chase, which translates to a love of Charisma Carpenter who played her.
Well, last night, I was watching the Lying Game, the show Charisma Carpenter is on now, and she tweeted for all of her “frans” (combination friends and fans, her word, not mine) to retweet something about the show. So I did, and added that it was nice to see her on a weekly basis again. She retweeted my retweet! How cool is that! So of course I text Elizabeth Anne immediately to tell her what happened. She in turn tweeted something about it, and Ms Carpenter retweeted Elizabeth! Such a nice person, so everyone watch her new show The Lying Game on ABC Family.
I forgot to tell everyone the best part of the weekend, I got carded while buying the Irishman Guinness! How amazing is that? At my age! I am going to buy alcohol all the time now, until they stop carding me.
So if you follow me on twitter check out my retweet from @AllCharisma!

Mood Thingy

Yesterday was our first food sale of the United Way season; I have to say it went fantastic! My team officially rocks! I know lately I have been evasive and not very giving with information on my private life, not that I am an open book in that area to begin with. However, I know lately I have been more evasive than usual.
There are reasons for that, it has been a rough year, and an extremely rough couple of months, but I am muddling through the best I can, and can even see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I’ll be honest right now I could use a day at home where no one is here, an impossibility these days, but it is what I really want, just one day of peace and quiet, just time for me to read or watch television or both. I am adept at doing both of those things, what would you do if you had your home to yourself for an entire day? Would you sing, shout, knock yourself out? A prize to the person who knows what and whom I am quoting with that previous sentence.
It is a long weekend, with no specific plans, the Irishman has to work today and beginning tomorrow he has his children, so nothing fun in the near future for me. Perhaps I will take a nap today, not exciting but definitely reeks of escapism, or perhaps I shall lock myself in the bedroom with a book and the television. However I am furious with Time Warner Cable right now, I cannot view anything On Demand, all I get is a black screen, I called in this morning to have them fix it and all I got was a oh I’ll send this up to our networking group. Well I work for a large telecommunications corporation, I know what that means. I am totally screwed and will not be able to watch Torchwood today, maybe tomorrow. I was also going to watch the Lifetime movie with Charisma Carpenter in it, now I can do neither. I am not in a good mood. Also was making an iced coffee thingy and of course with the lid of my blender broke I made a mess. Nothing is going the way I want it to, I think I need to scream and shout. Alright folks there is a new feature here, it is a moodthingy, yes that is the correct name of it, please let me know how this blog made you feel!

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