Wonderful Weather Day!

I haven’t been here in a while, I have missed putting down whatever is in my head, however I have been a little overwhelmed with changes at work. We are in training to take on new responsibilities, I can see the good in it, and I can see the possibilities of what the department is trying to achieve in this new endeavor. The training is typical for the company I work for, bright spot is one of the trainers actually takes the responsibility seriously and wants to get all of the information he can to us so we can succeed. Best trainer I have had in a long time, I hope he continues with this responsibility.
Spring is here and I couldn’t be happier as it is 40 degrees and rainy, this is my kind of spring! Now if it would snow I would be incredibly happy. To top things off today is my day off and Stargate SG-1 movie is on SyFy, I do believe my life is complete.
This Saturday we will be airing a show on Conversations with Shanon J and Angie B dealing with how to be a Ruth while waiting for your Boaz. It is a subject near and dear to my heart as I believe that women on the whole have forgotten that we need to behave a certain way in order to attract the kind of mate we want in life. Where has loyalty gone? Where has modesty gone? I am not saying that women should dress in nun’s habits or prairie women, just cover up a little more.
I hope you all will listen and give us feedback on our website http://www.convosate.com, we would love to hear from you. You can also find our link there to buy shirts telling everyone you listen to us!
I sit here with the door open enjoying the coolness of the morning, having my coffee and watching one of my favorite franchises, it is a good morning indeed.
My thoughts are with my friend that lost her mother last week, she was 101 and lived a good life, a life worth celebrating, however, no matter what your age losing your mother is still hard and I will be praying for her and the family.
I hope everyone has a great day, I consider it a personal achievement I made no trainer cry this week as I have been known to do. I am trying to practice the art of restraint, that is important, to become more patient and realize that everyone has a purpose and everyone is here to teach us a lesson in life. I suppose the trainer that is incompetent is here to teach me tolerance and patience. Lesson learned God, you can now slow down on that particular chapter in my life.
The one thing I am impatient with in life is stupidity, I can handle ignorance as I believe that is curable, stupidity is not, therefore I have little tolerance for it in general. My mother was a great example on how to behave in any situation and I am afraid that when I do l meet up with her some of my behavior will cause her to be disappointed with me. Therefore I am striving to be a better person, someone who is patient, kind and gentle, I fear I will never be there as I am not a gentle being. I tell it like it is, whether one wants to hear it or not, I am more like my father, who would say whatever was in his head. One never has to guess what I am feeling or thinking as it will spew out of my mouth like verbal vomit, or be written on my face for the world to see. I will never be able to be a spy as I am not good with subterfuge, this makes me sad as I always wanted to be CIA.
I hope everyone finds what they are meant to do in life, I am still searching, I don’t know when I will find it, well, hmmm honestly I do love being on the radio. I do feel like at this time and place in my life it is what I am supposed to be doing. I hope God uses both me and Shanon to help others with their issues and to know that we all have them, we all sin and come short of the Glory of God, however through Jesus we are all saved. I hope we do it with humor, acceptance and above all love. I hope you all have a great day and are on your journey to discovering your hidden talents and allowing God to bring them out to show the world.

Weekend Ponderings

Friday night we had a Ladies that Lunch gathering, only instead of lunch it was evening snack things. I like when we do these things on a Friday night because some women that cannot come on Saturday afternoons get to come to the Friday evening ones.
Of course I had to do a blatant self promotion and remind everyone about Conversations with Shanon J and Angie B. A couple of the women didn’t know about it, so I gave the website to listen to past shows and gave them the station call letters to listen life. In case you missed it, http://www.convosate.com to listen to past shows, and KHVN 970 AM for local listeners in the Dallas/FW area.
So, when everyone was leaving I had the opportunity to speak with one of the ladies I don’t get to see that often. We were catching up and she asked me how I came to have the opportunity to be on the radio. I gave her the brief story of how Shanon and I had been friends for years and she is the one that had enough faith in me to actually let me speak on the radio.
In the course of the conversation I mentioned the one we did on men and women and friendship, she asked me if I thought that men and women could be friends after having had a dating relationship. My answer, is no, after a person has had a romantic relationship with someone, whether it has been physical or not, it was romantic in nature. I do not believe that men and women can have a friendship after that. Let me tell you why, it will always get in the way, it will always be awkward, you can never introduce anyone to them because they will know.
I find this particularly troublesome, because it is easy to fall back into those kinds of relationships and it is inappropriate. No one needs that kind of stress in a relationship, so there you have it, I do not believe that once you have been in a romantic relationship you can go backwards and have a friendship.
That was my Friday night in a nutshell. Saturday was much quieter, laundry and a movie with the Irishman, we saw Gerard Butler, he totally rocks.
Sunday, Dinner/Lunch with Elizabeth Anne, the work on Monday morning, this week I shall have a 3 day work week, Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. I get to have Tess Thursday night and Friday, so excited! I don’t know what we will do but it will be an adventure!

More Funeral Songs

Well here we are, my first Friday of the week, yes, I have two Fridays in the week, I work Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday. I know what you are thinking, when is Starbucks day. Well it will be on the real Friday of the week. I will be getting Passion tea for now.
I am sitting here listening to the immortal words of the Bay City Rollers, my very first boy band love; I want at least one of their songs played at my funeral. I can’t decide which; I think Bye Bye Baby will be to cliché. Maybe I’m a Fool to Love You is definitely in the running, along with Dedication, oh, Rock and Roll Love Letter, so many to choose from. Maybe I will choose several; one can never have too many Bay City Roller songs played.
No weapon formed against me shall prosper, I’m more than a conqueror, I love that line in the song Stomp. Another song I’ll have at my funeral, Elizabeth Anne I hope you are taking notes, because I will depend on you to make sure it all is just like I want.
This past weekend was jam packed, a very enjoyable lunch with Alexander on Friday, car wouldn’t start in the parking lot of Target, until Alex touched it and then of course it magically starts. Then downtown for the Mary Kay Career Conference Friday night and Saturday, no sleep was had Friday night. Then Saturday evening I took the Irishman’s girls to play with Tess, pizza and movie night was in store for the girls.
Sunday was spent trying to do everything I normally do in three day, did not get done, I have so much laundry to do, I hate doing laundry, with a passion, however since I am the only one that does it in my house and I can’t afford all new clothes I guess I will have to do it.
I have done something to my right hand, my thumb to be exact, I don’t know what is wrong with it, but it is swollen and hurts. So, I did the only thing I could do, I bought an ace bandage for the thumb, it is actually called a thumb stabilizer. Hopefully this will help it heal, whatever I have done to it, crazy nuts, that’s what it is. I looked it up on WebMD and according to the site I have MS, not a good thing, I hope it’s not that.
This past Saturday was a new episode of Conversations with Shanon J and Angie B, I am incredibly proud of this one. It is about single parent dating, as anyone who knows me, knows this is my irritation in life. Parents, really mothers, behaving badly, remember moms you reap what you sow. A very real thing, if you have not heard the show, you can listen from our website http://www.convosate.com, we have an in studio guest who will either tell me I am way off the mark in my thinking or will actually give me affirmation I have been right all along.

Hair, Christmas and Stuff

I am trying to decide what to do with my hair; I need to have it done, cut, color the whole nine yards. It has blond in it now, I have officially been every color except black, I have never had black hair. I do believe I am too pale for black hair, I would look like a Goth person, not saying that is a bad thing, it just would make me look, well, silly.
I know what you are thinking, with everything that has happened the past few days how can I sit here and write about inconsequential things. Well, I don’t want to write about my feelings on what has happened it makes me incredibly sad. I have chosen to not partake in the conversation about gun control and who is to blame. I choose instead to write about things that don’t matter in the grand scheme of life.
So back to my hair, when I was a red head I enjoyed it, however I am really pale, my own dark brown suits me, probably because that is what God intended, however, my theory is, if he wanted me to stay that color he would not have created all of these wonderful colors. I really like the blond, I don’t know why but I feel like it suits me, personality wise, I have found that people don’t expect nearly as much from you when you have the blond in your hair. Maybe that is what I need now, low expectations of me; however I can only keep that up for so long. Then the original brown haired girl rears her head, oh maybe a warm caramel color, something in-between. I totally need to think about this, I liked when my hair was purple, but I am a little long in the tooth for that now, perhaps when I am 90, then people will just think I am eccentric and not weird.
I so cannot wait until after Christmas and I can tell you all what I got my children for Christmas, I am so excited. I really hope they love it and will cherish it the way I do, I have been sitting on this since the summer, it’s hard keeping it a secret for so long. I am not good at keeping presents a secret, when I buy it I want to give it!
So Thursday at 9:00 am CST I will be free, I will be running out of this building to finish my shopping, buying the food for our Christmas Eve feast and wrapping presents. Don’t forget Conversations with Shanon J and Angie B, which will be on this week as well. I am getting some great feedback from listeners, remember if you have missed any of our shows you can catch up on http://www.convosate.com and subscribe to our podcast on ITunes. For those last minute gift ideas check out our shop, you can get all kinds of goodies there.

Loss

Well I gave up sugar again, I started last week, I am feeling better physically and yet craving it so very badly. I love sugar, if I could marry sugar I would, but I am staying off until Christmas, then I admit I plan on indulging in homemade sugar cookies and my no bake oatmeal cookies. Then back on the wagon, which will be hard however I know I can do it.
Does anyone else have this issue? A huge addiction to sugar, where you actually have withdrawal symptoms when you cleanse it out of your system? I am irritable, a little shaky, not quite the DT’s, but close, no hallucinations, yet, man, its tough!
Saturday’s show was really good, in case you missed it you can listen on our website, http://www.convosate.com, we are also in ITunes, you can subscribe to the podcast and it will download automatically. We talked about grieving and the holidays that is something I face every holiday and have for a long time. When one is surrounded by older people from a young age you face grieving sooner than you should have to.
There are so many people I miss this time of year, my grandparents, my parents, my son, my great aunt Effie, one of my best friends Sandi, Chewie. I also have a grand daughter who is in heaven; it is a tough time of year. However, I have my memories and I hold them close to me, they comfort me, they sustain me. I have so many memories of Christmases with my cousins at my grandparent’s house, the warmth, the laughter, the food. Those early years the memories are jumbled, but they bring such warmth to my soul, it is almost like I can reach out and touch them.
When I get sad, and I do get sad at times, I think back to all of the happy, fun times I have had with the people I miss and it makes me smile. I also think of where they are now, and the amazing celebration they are having. I know without a doubt they are having the best time, because everyone I know that has passed, they are in heaven. I honestly don’t know how people who don’t believe in a higher power handle grief, where do they think their loved ones are? I know without a doubt I will see my people again, I will have a joyous reunion with them, I will get to hug them, laugh with them and catch them up on all that happened after they left us. They will take me around and introduce me to relatives who went before I was born. I have vivid images of what it will be like, however, I know that I don’t have an imagination vivid enough for how it will really be.

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