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My Thoughts on Today

I was going to write about some things I have recently tried and loved and then I remembered it is Martin Luther King jr., day.

Here in the United States of America that means we take pause today to honor a great American who believed in equality for all. Not for the few, not for certain religions, not for certain skin colors, for ALL.

Now that is something I can get behind, equality for all, I like that, I do believe, with my whole heart it is something the majority of Americans wants as well.

I grew up in a non-racist household, what that means is my parents taught me to judge what is on the inside, not the outside. Having said that, I will tell you my dad was prejudiced, he was a product of his generation in many ways, having been born in 1911 this is to be expected.

My dad had no issues with people of a different skin color getting to vote, getting the same pay for the same job, being friends with people of a different skin color. He did not believe that we should intermarry. That is the only thing he had issues with. I am sure if he lived longer or had lived in a different time, he would have seen things differently.

My mother, who outlived him by 10 years, did change her opinion on this as she met and became friends with people of a different skin color.

I believe if people are exposed to different cultures and different ethnicities they will begin to think differently.

I don’t believe in the whole “race” thing, we are all one race, the human race. We might look differently and speak differently and think differently, but inside, where it genuinely counts, we all want the same thing. For this world to be better for our children, to be able to feed, clothe and shelter our families in a dignified manner.

I believe that if we all united and refused to be drawn into the “race” wars, we would defeat the real enemy.

When we stop looking at each other and fearing skin color, religion, region or accents, then we can truly stop the hate.

The hate that Martin Luther King jr. wanted to stop so many years ago. Today, of all days of the year, the way we can honor him is to truly stop giving our attention to the ones that want to divide us. Stop looking for differences and start looking for the sameness in all of us. A desire to elevate our children higher than we climbed, a desire to live in peace, a desire to truly love one another.

As a Christian all I can do is look to what Jesus said in John 13:34 “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.”

No room for hate in my heart if I follow that commandment, which I try my best to do on a daily basis. Someone recently told me that they know someone is truly bad if I don’t like them, because I like everyone. I do try and find something positive in every person around me, if I can’t find anything positive about you, it has nothing to do with your skin color. It has everything to do with your character.

If you have any comments, criticisms or really anything you want to say to me, you can do so here in the comments or email me at angie@angieworld.com.

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Happy Anniversary Foy and Odela

January 13, one of my favorite days of the year, why, you ask, well I’m glad you did. It is the day that started everything, January 13, 1934, Foy and Odela went to the Justice of the Peace and promised in front of God and everyone to love, honor, be faithful, loyal and remain true to one another for a life time.

That they did, with a dignity and grace that is rarely seen these days. I know I have a tendency to romanticize things from my childhood, but these are the two humans I don’t have to exaggerate or give them qualities that they didn’t possess.

They were and continue to be my model for what true, romantic love looks like. They were the epitome of sharing, caring, laughter, love and discipline. They were truly perfect in my eyes, they always will be.

They lived through some of the hardest times this country has ever seen and came out without any bitterness or anger. They loved this country fiercely, just as fiercely as they loved one another.

My parents didn’t have to adopt me, they chose to, it was a daunting task, taking in a pre-teen with a bad attitude. They did, the attitude changed, the stubbornness did not, They told me they had no regrets, I believe them, the last words my mother ever said to me was I had been the best surprise.

I miss them every day of my life.

Today, on what would be their 84th anniversary, I know that it is truly special as they now have their youngest son with them to celebrate. I have said before, I don’t believe they are looking down on me and their other children left here on earth. Some things would make them sad, and there is no sadness in heaven, and trust me, those two are in heaven. There is no doubt in anyone’s mind that my parents ended up anywhere else.

So there they are, in heaven, having a coconut cake to celebrate. My brother is there to help them eat the cake today, I know that makes the celebration that much sweeter.

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Unconditional Love

I tried to ignore this, I really did, but it hurt too much, physically hurt! I may make some people mad, please don’t be mad at me, well you can be mad, but then get glad in the same pants you got mad in. I just channeled my grandma there.

So, on Facebook, my love/hate relationship continues, someone posted that they wanted unconditional love in 2018. They meant romantic love, not familial love, or friendship love.

Unconditional romantic love doesn’t exist, it is conditional. If one is in a romantic relationship, if one person cheats, lies and is abusive, the other person will fall out of love and leave.

It is not unconditional, I have unconditional love for my children, I will never, ever, leave their sides. I will call them out on any behavior that is not good for them or the ones around them. I have done it before, I am not afraid to do it again.

I have unconditional love for my family, now this does not mean I will put up with abusive behaviors, or lies, I will cut them off, I will still love them, but I will not hesitate to put them out of my life. Especially if I have called you out on said behavior and you continue with it. I still love you, but I don’t want to be around you.

Romantic love is beyond different in all of those instances. If you are in a romantic relationship you open yourself up in a different way, you become more vulnerable, telling that person things you would never tell anyone else. Sharing yourself in a way that two become one, in their very souls. It is rare and unique, and it is conditional. It is conditional upon that other person being worthy of that bond, that trust, if it is broken then the love will die. If one person in the relationship breaks the trust and becomes abusive, emotionally, mentally, physically or verbally; the love will die. Once again, conditional love, I will continue to love you if you treat me a certain way. With respect, love, kindness in all aspects of life.

Once that trust is broken, the love will eventually die, it might take weeks, months and sometimes years, but it will go away.

Romantic unconditional love does not exist, it is not real, there are no knights on horses waiting to swoop us up. There are real men and women, who are flawed beings that can work towards making romantic love work. But it takes work on both sides, it is an every day kind of thing, it is monotonous at times, boring at times, mentally draining at times, but it can be achieved. However, it is not unconditional, it has conditions that have to be met.

Marriage is a contract, once it is signed you promise to love, cherish, be faithful, honor and if you are of a certain faith obey. I am not going to debate the whole obey thing here, if you promise that, it’s your business not mine.

But the rest, it takes hard work after the honeymoon period is over, a lot of people don’t understand that.

So, in essence, stop looking for something you are never going to find, look for real, for honest, for loyalty.

As for me, I am choosing to wait for Dean Cain, I refuse to accept anything less than my superman.

And yes, I do realize this will never happen, I am not an idiot. What this means is I am choosing to be alone, due to the fact that I have yet to meet a man (relatives aside) that can actually fulfill his end of the contract. Faithfulness, loyalty, kindness and loving. If you have this in your life, good for you, you found it, but if you are honest you will admit that it is conditional on them continuing to treat you in this manner.

All comments and complaints welcome, feel free to leave them here or email me at angie@angieworld.com.

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I don’t understand

There are a few things that I don’t understand and perhaps some of you out there can explain things to me.

I don’t understand people who get in the passing lane and drive the speed limit or lower. Seriously, find the dang gas pedal people! What is so hard about this, you are in a lane that is meant for people like me, who know where their gas pedal is and how to use it. Please, for the love of my sanity, get over.

People who say they don’t watch television. I don’t understand this one at all, I am not going to pretend to, I will look at you like you have two heads if you tell me that. Oh and if you are calling to tell me your television service doesn’t work and in that same breath tell me you don’t watch it. How do you know it doesn’t work? If you really don’t watch it, how do you know?

People who tell me they don’t read. I really don’t get this one, reading is like breathing. How do you get along in this world if you don’t read? How do you get your news? How do you learn new things? I don’t even know how to respond to this when it is said to me. I blink a lot, if you are talking to me and I start blinking rapidly, know I don’t understand a thing that is coming out of your mouth at that point in time.

People who say they don’t like sweets, how, just how are you from this planet. I could wallow in sugar, just throw it on the ground and literally roll around in it. Throw some candy on there while you’re at it, I’ll roll around in that as well.

I once heard someone say they don’t listen to music. How does that happen? Music feeds my soul, I don’t understand you if you don’t listen to music.

Just a few things I don’t understand, so many more running through my head. How can someone have never seen Star Wars? And how can one admit to that?

It is almost the new year, 2017 has been very good to me, I cannot imagine what 2018 has in store for me.

Oh, for the record, I have no hate in my heart for anyone, I have great disdain and pity, but no hate. Hate takes up too much space, I would prefer to ignore you off the face of the planet. I’m really good at that, if I truly don’t like you, then you will know. Because you will be off the planet.

One more thing, vegetarians, I don’t understand them, bacon is really good.

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2018 List

I have decided to add Norway to my must see places list. Someone posted a picture of a Norweigan Navy man, and that is all it took for me to become a tourist. Seriously the most beautiful man I have ever seen in my life.

Dean Cain is pretty and will always have my affections and I am going to marry him one day. However, this man was beautiful. If you have Instagram you have to check him out. His name is Lasse Løkken Matberg, his twitter handle is @lasselom.

Seriously, I had no idea that men who look like this actually exist. Who knew they existed in Norway? The land of my people! He looks like a modern day Viking!

I mean seriously, how has this not been broadcast everywhere. Tourism would be out of the roof!

It is almost a new year, I look forward to seeing what 2018 will bring me. 2017 has been such an amazing year, so many great things have been happening. So many great things to come in the new year.

I am not going to do a whole New Years resolution thing, I am going to do a list of things I want to accomplish:

  1. Trip to Montanna
  2. New Tattoo
  3. Maybe a new hair color (still debating on this one)
  4. A writing class
  5. Still the year of yes

Those are the things I have so far. Any suggestions as to what I should say yes to?

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Merry Christmas

I should start off by saying Merry Christmas! It is Christmas Day, as most of you know, Christmas Eve is when we celebrate as a family. It was great, except for Alex and Elicia being delayed, however I got to spend time with them later in the evening.

Children laughing and playing, tearing wrapping paper, laughter, conversation. Truly greatness.

Jesus is totally the reason behind celebrating the day, the birth of our Lord and Savior, being together, exchanging gifts as the Magi brought gifts to the Christ child. That is what we do, that is how we celebrate His birth.

I am truly blessed, I know people say that all of the time, it is a saying that is losing it’s meaning. I can tell you, this year, I feel truly blessed, free, joyous, so much less stress than in previous years.

I had four glorious days off of work, much needed, I go back tomorrow, work 4 days, then off for a week. I am going to spend it recharging my internal batteries, organizing my pantry and linen closet and a possible day trip to Claremore. Maybe a drive through Owasso and Tulsa as well.

I know being in my pajamas will also be order for at least a couple of those days. Elizabeth Anne gave me a new blu-ray player, now I have one in the living room and my bedroom. I am thinking a movie day is in the books as well.

4 short days, then I get to sleep, play, read, watch movies, do whatever I want.

My prayer for everyone today, our first holy day, even if it is the end of the year, is that you are surrounded by people you love and that truly love you. I was yesterday, my soul is at peace, my entire being is happy, I wish the same for anyone reading this.

Life is way too short to spend it surrounded by hate, negativity, gloominess and well anything that makes you completely miserable.

I foresee a multitude of Christmases filled with joy, peace, love and Dean Cain.

Speaking of, at Christmas Eve lunch, Tess spots Mr. Sooner (if you follow me on FB or Instagram you know who that is) I said my boyfriend is here with us, she looks at me and says, with a completely straight face “you’re cheating on Dean Cain with him here”. I didn’t know whether to be proud or scared. Going with proud, sense of humor, check, dash of snarkiness, check, family trait of sarcasm, intact.

I’d say our job is done here.

Merry Christmas people, as usual if you have nay comments or something you would like to convey to me you can find me at angie@angieworld.com or leave a missive here.

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Here We Go Again

I have been seeing so many people talk about their year, this is the time when you are supposed to take stock and vow to do things differently in the new year.

Well, my life has been perfect from Easter of 2017 to present day, I just don’t even know how God could make it any more perfect. Wait, yes I do, Dean Cain, Dean Cain would make it way beyond perfect.

I don’t know what I am going to do differently in the new year, oh yes, January 13th I will be doing another Doterra cleanse. So, warning, no coffee for thirty days, also I have been wallowing in sugar for the month of December, with no regrets, but I will be going through withdrawals.

I am sure I will be a delight to be around, like I said forewarned.

There is nothing I will do differently in 2018, wait, yes, I will be traveling more. I have a girls tripped planned for October of next year, I want to go to Florida at some point. Oklahoma more, family reunion in June, favorite nephew and his wife are expecting their second child. I can’t not go.

So there ya go, in 2018 I will change that, I will also be continuing my year of yes. I will be saying yes to almost anything and anyone, nothing immoral or illegal, but otherwise yes it is.

Maybe more coffee, after January, oh wow, do you know what I just realized. I will be on this cleanse during my birthday!! NO! What have I done! No coffee on my birthday? No cake? I don’t know what to say.

I have decided on my birthday present to myself, I will be getting my second tattoo. I want a Viking design with the number 13 incorporated somehow. Viking, well because I am one, 13 because that is a lucky number in my family. My parents were married on the 13th day of January and were married 59 years before my dad passed away. So there you have it, my yes for my birthday. No, you won’t be able to see it, I only get them where they will be hidden when I die. I can’t let my mom see that nonsense, she might ground me. I can’t have that in heaven, I’m pretty sure there is going to be a lot I want to see and do, so yeah, hidden.

So there was a huge controversy on Facebook, I posted two pictures of myself, one with glasses and one without. Everyone chose the with, then I made my profile picture one without. The horror! I am quite the rebel.

I miss my old team at work, yes, I know, I still see them, but we don’t sit by each other and I miss them. My new team is great, I already knew almost everyone on it, some I have worked with before, some I have never been no the same team with them. I have a feeling they will eventually find me annoying, as I am happy all of the time. Yes, all of the time, I wake up that way, I go to sleep that way, it is the most amazing thing EVER.

Stormie is so happy here in our new life, she is less skittish, she sings with me, she tries to dance, but I am the better dancer. She knows it, she doesn’t admit it. Ronald is happier, he actually goes all over the house and no longer stays in one room. Peace. We are all experiencing peace, it is amazing. Everyone should experience what I am, God is good, not just sometimes, but all of the time.

Sometimes you just have to exhibit patience and wait for it and then recognize your opportunity when it is presented to you.

I did, and now I am reaping the rewards of my leap of faith.

May you all have a wonderfully Merry Christmas! As usual you can comment here or send me an email at angie@angieworld.com.

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Life

I had a thought and I needed to get it down before I left, I have so much to do today and I can’t believe I stopped to do this. However, I believe my sudden insight might be helpful to others.

I have been saying I have no life, jokingly, but kinda serious. I said it to myself this morning, and I thought whoa, why am I saying this.

I literally have the best life I have had in so many years, I am beyond happy. I literally wake up singing and dancing with Stormie. Her singing voice is a bit better than mine, admittedly, but we muddle through. The dancing though, I have her beat on that one. So many years of watching American Bandstand and Soul Train finally pay off.

I live closer to my children than I have in quite some time, I see them more often.

I come home to a place that is filled with peace, that is a true oasis from the chaos of the world.

I have an amazing life and I need to stop saying I have no life, whether it is out loud or in my head.

If you are one who is doing this as well, stop, take stock of all that you have. Your friends, family, pets, the home that is a fortress against the crazy of every day life.

You will find you have a life filled with amazement and great Joy.

God has given me this amazing life and I am going to honor Him from now on. I will no longer be saying I have no life. I will be shouting from the rooftops that my life is joyous!

Peace out peeps! I hope your day is going to be as amazing as mine is.

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Disdain

Ok, so, they moved my desk at work, I should be used to this as this is what they like doing. I will miss my old team, we had so much fun together. Giving each other a hard time, joking, helping with complex issues. We are now scattered.

I like the people on my new team, I seriously can get along with almost anyone. Almost. One of my new teammates, that I’ve know for quite a while now, said if Angie doesn’t like someone they must be the devil incarnate.

She’s not wrong, I can find good in anyone. Almost anyone. There are two people on my floor that I have serious disdain for. I take that back. One I have mild dislike and I don’t trust them, the other is disdain and downright loathing for.

This number will soon be going up by one, you see, in managements infinite wisdom, they are moving a certain someone’s group to my floor.

On the same side as my group. I am not looking forward to this event. However, since I am the consummate professional I will be able to tolerate this. They did put me in the back of the row, which helps.

I do like my new manager, I do believe we will get along well. I wish I could tell you her name so you could google her. She’s an Olympian gymnast. Seriously cool.

I am almost ready for Christmas, I have been very busy lately with all of that.

Oh I also have a stalker light. Ask if you would like that clarified.

Till later my peeps. As usual you can leave a comment here or email me at angie@angieworld.com

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Shopping

Yesterday I did the thing I look forward to all year. Christmas shopping with Elizabeth Anne. It is always an adventure, filled with thoughtful consideration of the gifts we choose for others, laughter and yelling at each other. Usually it’s the turn here really fast that brings on the yelling. It’s always an adventure shopping with Elizabeth Anne.

I am almost done shopping, just a couple more things then stocking stuffers. Yes, my grown children still get stockings. They look forward to them, I look forward to filling them.

We moved desks at work, not a huge deal, except for the fact that I really enjoyed sitting by my old group. I am positive I will enjoy my new one as well. Some old friends in this one as well as new. Always an adventure and learning experience.

They had put my desk in the very front row, stressful as a certain someone who shall not be named is being moved to my floor. My desk would have been on the beaten path, as it were.

One of my amazing coworkers talked to my manager. Yes, I know, I should have, but being on a new team I didn’t want to be demanding right up front. Long story short, she moved me to the back, it’s all good in the hood now.

I am so ready for Christmas. I can hardly wait to spend time with my beautiful family.

I hope everyone likes their presents. That’s the iffy part, if they haven’t specifically told me what they want.

Oh! Oh Emm Gee!! Ok, so, Jeffrey’s fiancé’s oldest daughter, likes OU! She is officially my favorite! I can’t wait for her to open her present!

As usual any comments, complaints or criticisms can be left here or sent to angie@angieworld.com.