I have two problems today, well, ok honestly more than two, however two that are bothering me. First up, caffeine, coffee in particular, Wednesday my stomach started hurting. I believe I told everyone I was finally getting what the Irishman had and I was going to lose weight. Was very excited, however the pain went away as the day went on, I thought oh well. Then yesterday it came back with a vengeance, I narrowed it down to coffee, yes, my love betrayed me. The pains started about 45 minutes after I had ingested coffee, my co-worker and friend Jason said it was a sign I should give up coffee, he has been harping on this particular subject for a few weeks. I advised him that no one in their right mind would want to see me off of coffee.
I was talking it over with the Irishman and he said the pains started when I changed coffee brands, I have a habit of buying whatever is on sale and Costco had one on sale that I had picked up. I had never bought this particular one and I thought maybe he has a point. So this morning I am experimenting, I stopped at Starbucks and picked up a coffee. We all know that Starbucks and I have a very special relationship and they have never let me down. Well, yes, they have but it has been certain locations, not the brand in general. I stopped at my favorite location, Custer and Parker, love that one, today proved no different. Fast, friendly and professional, they are simply terrific. I’ll keep you all informed about the results of my experiment.
Next issue, my weight, come on you all had to see that coming a mile away. Yesterday I told Jason I need to lose 49 pounds; he just stared at me like I had lost my mind. He said Angie no way you need to lose that much, you’ll look bad, just bones. I explained to him since he is a black man he doesn’t understand; don’t be shocked, we have open honest conversations about what it means to be white or black in any given situation. So I explain to him that white men don’t like women who are not skinny, they want the size double 0. He said that is crazy, I said well welcome to my life. So when my other friends and co-workers Kissa and Kay come in, the conversation comes up again, this time, I was informed that I do not have a white girl figure, that I have more of a black girl figure with hips and thighs and those are never going away.
They are probably correct, as long as I can remember I have had huge hips and thighs, nothing makes them go away, even when I was a size 4, they were enormous. I don’t know what to do to get to where I want to be. I want to be so skinny that people tell me I need to eat; I have always wanted that, I think I need to stop eating altogether that might solve it. I work so hard for nothing, I’ll never be skinny, I’ll never be pretty enough, smart enough, oh wait, never mind the last one, I am really smart, except on this issue, then I turn into a crazy woman. If anyone knows how I can get white girl skinny, with really skinny thighs and hips, please tell me your secret, without plastic surgery. Can’t afford that at this point in my life.
Cabana Boys and Starbucks
I need a vacation, a vacation where all I do is sit on a beach with a cabana boy bringing me alcohol treats with little umbrellas adorning the glass. I have so much to process right now, a vacation would do me good, my mind and my heart are full.
There is a part of me that wants so badly to go back home and be near my family, I miss them so much, it was so amazing seeing them this weekend. However I feel like I didn’t get to catch up with everyone, I could sit and talk to Richard for hours about family history. Listening to Larry’s stories was just greatness, I love his wife Donna, she is just a sweetheart. I feel as if I didn’t get to visit with Cindy long enough, I need to visit her one on one, but it was good getting to know Paula’s girls.
I will not be moving back to Oklahoma, I like Texas too much; it is just sometimes I wish I were more connected here. My children really keep me anchored here; they are Texans, through and through. Even though Jeffrey was not born here, he claims to be Texan. I wonder what would happen if I reminded him he was born in Oklahoma, he would probably just shake his head. As for me, well, I would love to live in New York, or Alaska, even Montana, I want to go somewhere cold, however, I would like to live where they have shopping as well. So, New York would be the best place for me, I don’t know how long I could handle it, before being driven completely insane, but I would love to give it a go.
I have a lot of things to say and I feel that I have a short amount of time to say them in, I don’t know why I feel such an urgency to impart every single thought in my head, but there it is. I feel a need to get it all out, even the inane things, like my addiction to caffeine, and yes I know it is an addiction. Even today I am having an inordinate amount of coffee.
I have it at home then bring it to work with me in my extra large Starbucks insulated cup, so good, so amazing. God’s way of saying I love you Angie, I will believe that till the day I die. I have traced back my caffeine addiction to my grandmother, she used to give me milk coffee when I was little and it grew from there. I will be forever grateful to her for giving me the elixir of life.
The Horrible No Good Morning
I have so many thoughts in my head, not a great morning, rough start, another bad Starbucks experience. When oh when will I learn? NEVER go to the Starbucks at Campbell and Central in Richardson, TX. I used to love that one, it is where the Irishman and I used to meet during his split shift. We had a lot of good talks and laughs at that Starbucks, but this early morning crew just cannot get it together. I am paying you money! Listen to what I want! Is that really so hard? Never again, lesson totally learned now.
I shall take a moment and breath, relax, release, Whitley Gilbert taught me well, there I feel much better.
Today is my first Friday, I know you all are tired of hearing about that, however I shall never get tired of stating it. Tomorrow will be spent doing laundry and getting ready to go out-of-town Friday. I am going to my Testerman family reunion and I am so excited and nervous.
Yes nervous, these are my real cousins, my real family line, as you all know I was adopted. However I was adopted by my great-aunt and uncle, so I stayed in the family. However, this branch are the ones I grew up with until my aunt and uncle adopted me. I have not seen some since I was 12 years old. Some I have not seen since my grandmothers funeral, some I have not seen in roughly 20 years.
I am most excited to see my cousin Cindy, she was always more like a sister than a cousin. I have missed her greatly and cannot wait to hug her. I know some might think this is crazy, that I have not seen them in so long. Life gets in the way, that is all there is to it, nothing more, nothing less.
This is also Father’s Day weekend, it makes me miss my dad and my grandpa, a lot, they were my male role models. The ones that taught me how men were supposed to treat women. The ones I have been searching for all my life it seems. Since my grandfather and father were brothers in reality, they were so similar. They both had strong morals, both strong Christian men who studied the word of God. They both had a great love of the land and farming, animals and family. I miss them both terribly, I wish I still had them to go to and ask their advice on different matters.
Enough, I am going to make myself cry, way too early and it has been way too horrible of a morning. I have come to a decision, I cannot force myself to watch the Choice, no matter how much I want to support Dean Cain. I have found re-runs of Lois and Clark; the New Adventures of Superman on the HUB, Sunday nights. I will stick with that, at least it is fun-filled, less bimbos and, well, Dean is in tights.
Friday, Starbucks and Dean Cain
It has been a strange couple of days, I have had nightmares two nights in a row, the first night was about one of my children. So I do the only thing a mom can do, I text all of them and make them all tell me they are ok. I irritated one as he was asleep, but you know what, I don’t care, I needed to know. So there. They were all fine by the way, but the bad feeling would not go away until I heard from them.
Last night the dream was about me, I was in a house and I had all of the doors locked, however when I went into the garage and got in the car and left someone ran in behind me. I saw him, so I backed out, closed the garage door, went into the back yard and looked in the window. I saw him, the burglar, making himself at home; he was sitting and watching my television! So I yell really loud 911, because that was what I was taught to do in high school. The burglar turns and sees me and gets up and has a machete, and starts to run toward me, I run out of the back gate and jump in the car and before I can drive off I wake up. I was terrified, horrible to wake up without getting away, now I will never know.
So many things happened yesterday, what to address first, well, I’ll go in order, the big meeting. It was a lot of fun, I was not wrong to look forward to it. I do believe they are learning that you praise to success, not berate to mediocrity. The new 2nd level manager and the first level managers gave out kudos and prizes for perfect attendance for the first quarter. The people with the top numbers were recognized as well as new team leads. The only thing that happened that I was sadly disappointed with was a trainer, there was a jeopardy like contest and the contestants were drawn randomly. He was one of them, instead of answering the questions; he was feeding the answers to another contestant. I felt this was inappropriate and unprofessional, this was supposed to be a fun thing, not a cheating thing. He should have answered and let everyone know why he was in a training position. To cheat, sad and wrong.
The rest loved it, we all clapped for our co-workers that won prizes, happy for their recognition, it almost felt like a Mary Kay meeting, I loved it.
The second thing is a not so happy thing, it was the premier of the Dean Cain show, however, I could only stomach about 10 minutes of it, as Dean was not in that segment. I have recorded it and will fast forward to his part, although I don’t even know if I will do that. I can see why I was not considered for this show. The girls are the typical ones you see on the bachelorette or MTV dating shows, more bimbo than nice girl. Of course that seems to be all men want these days, bimbos. Good luck when you procreate with them. Anyway, I don’t think I will be watching this Dean Cain offering as I am sickened by the premise.
On an up note, it is Friday and I am having Starbucks, Venti Passion Tea Lemonade unsweetened of course. So I want everyone to have a fantastic Friday, I hope you enjoy your day and your weekend. Oh I will be volunteering at the Susan G Komen run in Plano tomorrow, I am a race marshal, I can’t wait! Come out and cheer on all of the runners!
Starbucks, Weight Loss and Friday
I did something horrible yesterday, I fell off the wagon, I had sugar, and while most of you might think its ok to fall off once in a while, it is not ok for me. Yesterday I had a bite of hummingbird cake and of pound cake. Last night I crashed, literally my body crashed from all of the sugar, I went home from work and by 8:30 I was passed out. No Tylenol PM or wine was involved, I promise, it was a sugar crash, I slept hard and woke up feeling like I was coming off a three day binge. Horrible. I am a sugar addict, I cannot have it, I have consequences to eating it, a lot of people don’t and that’s fine but I do.
Dieting is simple in nature, you eat less, exercise and you lose weight, it is not easy, there are pitfalls, and there are temptations everywhere we look. You cannot walk into a store without being assaulted by the temptations of candy, cookies, cakes and pies, they are at the checkout counter, they are when you first walk in. I fight this everyday, yesterday I caved, I fell off the sugar wagon and paid a price. I will not be doing that today, back on the wagon I am. I am angry with myself this morning, I forgot my yogurt at home, every morning I have Greek yogurt and I love it, I forgot it. I did remember my blackberries, but man I need some protein, especially after my binging yesterday. Oh well, I shall persevere.
I am very happy today is my first Friday of the week, I have made a decision, not life changing, however important for me. I have decided to only have Starbucks on the real Friday of the week. The reason for this is I want to keep my relationship with Starbucks special; I also want to keep my wallet somewhat fuller and my waistline slimmer. I love Starbucks and there are healthy choices to be had there, my favorite is a Venti Passion Tea Lemonade unsweetened, so good, so good for you. However, I still love my coffee treats, these days I like them soy milk and low fat, low sugar, but even then they still have a lot of points. I like using my points for other things, so, once a week Starbucks and I will be getting together to cement our relationship.
I hope everyone has a great day, I have great plans for tomorrow, I will be getting my hair done, can’t wait to see Beatrice and hear about her trip to Kenya. Then I will be seeing Thomas Alexander, not many people know this, but I named him after the very first one of my ancestors that came to this country in 1774. I don’t think his dad even knows this, alright peeps I am totally outy!
Make it Happen
Well here we are, another Monday/Thursday for me and it feels kinda fabulous. I am still loving my schedule, I do wish I had a later start time, like 7, but you know what, I am not complaining.
I had a nightmare last night, my BFF died, there were snakes everywhere and then something horrific happened. I can’t even begin to put it into words, let’s just say I hope I never have that dream again. I don’t even know where it came from, out of left field, I didn’t watch anything bad before going to sleep, so I don’t know what to attribute the dream to. Needless to say tonight I will try and direct my dreams elsewhere.
Last night I discovered something amazing, on the HUB, they are showing Lois and Clark: The New Adventures of Superman, from the beginning, every Sunday night. I think you all know what I will be watching, last night was shirtless Dean Cain episode. I thought I had died and gone to heaven, it was as amazing to see now as it was then. Totally held up, I mean you can’t go wrong with a shirtless Dean Cain. Still upset over the dating show.
Friday was Starbucks, yum, today is coffee at home and traveling with me when I leave, I do love my coffee. Is there anything better to start one’s day than an amazing cup of java? I think not, well maybe if I had a maid to bring me said coffee, that would be pretty amazing.
Today’s entry is a short one, I shall sign off on this note, remember to treat each other with respect. When all is said and done, mutual respect is all we have, we are only as good as our word, so go out and make it happen.
Starbucks, Friday, Robin Hood
Today is a Starbucks kind of day, I am thinking Greek Yogurt, iced coffee, in my very own Venti insulated cup and Chipotle Chicken Wraps for lunch. Thank you Starbucks for starting my day off right and continuing it on throughout the day.
This past weekend went by way too fast, I had a full three days off from work, and I did nothing exciting, it was really nice. Sunday we did go out to eat, we found a new place for fish and chips, McSwiggans on Windhaven. It was really good, much better than the Ice House on Preston. The last time we ate there the food was just horrible, like it was all microwaved, not only microwaved but left in there way too long. Will not be going back there again, nor recommending it to anyone.
We watched Thor on the HD TV, could not find my blue ray, so upset, I do have it downloaded on my IPhone, so the Irishman streamed it from my IPhone to the television. I love technology. Without it I would have not been able to watch Thor, which would have been upsetting.
Yesterday I saw that Robin Hood was on, the Russell Crowe version, which made me miss the BBC Robin Hood, so off to Netflix I go. And yes, success, it is there. Start watching Robin Hood, with all of the English accents it makes me miss Tom Hiddleston, so IMDB here I come. There is a series he did in England, Henry IV, nowhere on Netflix, or BBC America. I have begged the Irishman to see if he can find it and download it. I need to see that series. I cannot wait for Much Ado About Nothing to hit theaters; I need my fix of a Joss Whedon project.
Today is my Monday, Tuesday and Friday all rolled into one, very heady stuff, I have off tomorrow as it is my regular day off, perhaps I should have taken today off. Then I would have had 5 days off while only taking one vacation day. However we did nothing exciting so I am going to save my vacation day for when I actually have something to do. I have already started thinking about the schedule I will choose next shift bid. It will go into Christmas so the dynamic will be different, it is something to think about, it will be time to choose before I know it.
I hope everyone enjoys their day, I know I will, as it is Friday and Starbucks day!
Fun Work
Today is my first Friday of the week, and yes I do find myself enjoying these days off. I am loving having a day off in the middle of the week, it is a treat, it feels so decadent, to have nothing to do on a Wednesday.
So Elizabeth Anne bought me a new camera for Mother’s Day, I have been playing with it since Sunday. It is the Kodak EasyShare camera and it is purple! So cool, I took a picture of Nocona this morning, and it looks so good! I cannot wait to take pictures of everything, like Tessa, the dog, squirrels, you know, normal things.
I listen to my favorite morning radio show on IHeart Radio, Kidd Kraddick in the Morning on KISSFM 106.1; well this morning they are talking about the show I hate the most. The Bachorlette, good lord, I hope they hurry because it is brutal. I don’t watch, have never watched, will never watch, and don’t want to hear. Whew relief, they have moved on to making fun of Chris Humphries. That I can handle.
This morning I brought my coffee with me, I have a giant Starbucks insulated cup, hot coffee through a straw. Yum. Love it, I stole the idea from my friend Linda’s husband, we were hanging out one evening and he got coffee from the coffee shop and was drinking from a straw. It was hot coffee. I asked Linda about it, as I had never seen anyone do that. She explained he had a teeth whitening done and wasn’t willing to give up his coffee (who can blame him) and this keeps the coffee from staining his teeth. Pure brilliance. So, I have stolen this, I don’t do it all the time, but I have adopted it for sometimes. So thank you Linda and Bill for the great idea.
I have to tell you all about my group at work; I am really enjoying this group, with this particular supervisor. True story, when I first came to this department, after training, he was my floor walker, very knowledgeable and helpful. Really wants to see people succeed. It is very refreshing to work for someone of that caliber. Anyway, he asked if we wanted to make our area fun, so we said yes and everyone contributed some funds and one of the women went shopping. Our area is now ready for summer, it is very colorful and fun, we have beach balls, pinwheels, kites and all sorts of fun things. I will take a picture with my new camera and upload it tomorrow so you all can see. We are the only group that has decorated and now every time I walk in, I smile. It just makes me happy.
On that note my friends I shall bid you all adieu, Happy Friday, or Tuesday if it is your Tuesday. I wish you all the best.
Big Doings Ahead
This morning since it is my Friday, I stopped at Starbucks; this one is at Campbell and Central Expressway in Richardson, TX. My experience this morning was horrendous. The pregnant girl at the drive through window was rude, and I had to repeat my order three times before she got it. The she took her time, with the car in front of me and with me, she was purposely slow. She was surly and rude, she probably spit in my iced coffee. I try to avoid this particular Starbucks in the early AM, the midmorning, early afternoon crew is wonderful. They just cannot seem to get the early morning crew to be pleasant, professional and proficient at their job. No early morning recommendation for this Starbucks for the early morning workers.
Yesterday the doctor called in a new medication for the Irishman, it was not a good night, and hopefully this medication will take effect soon and will finally fix the issues. It has been a rough month, not going to lie about that. However, I am hopeful for the future, near and far.
June is going to be a very busy month for me, the very first weekend is the Irishman’s daughters dance recital, and then the following weekend is my family reunion. Then the next weekend is the wedding of a dear friend of mine. So happy I have the middle of the week off, or I would never get errands done! My summer will start with a bang, then July, which is adventure packed as we have the Irishman’s children all month. I have the Wednesdays already planned as it will be me and the girls; I am hoping Tessa can join us for the Wednesday adventures as well.
Well, that’s all I got for now, more later I am sure. Tomorrow is filled with a hair appointment, errands, looking for a shirt to wear to the big Geek Happening and resting for the big day ahead!
Another Book Review
Here I sit, facing my 2nd Friday of the week, ok, after this week I will quit bragging that I have 2 Fridays a week. Maybe. What I am about to say next may anger some people, yeah, when has that stopped me before.
So I bought that book 50 Shades of Grey, I bought it from Target so I thought really how bad could it be. I must preface this by saying I am no prude, I am a child of the ’70’s for goodness sake. However, this book, it is nothing but porn, I know it was advertised as “mommy porn” but this was just filth. I couldn’t even get through the first book, when the man brought out the list of what he wanted to do to that girl I was done. I put it down and will not pick it back up. I honestly don’t know what I was expecting but hard core porn was totally not it, especially for a book I bought at Target.
Yes, I know, it is being touted as a break through book on women’s sexuality, seriously, if the author of the book cannot even talk about what she wrote without looking at the ground and blushing, well there is an issue.
And I am fine with the book existing, I have nothing against it, just seriously, don’t sell it in the same spot you sell children and young adult, i.e. teenage, books in. This book should come in a plain brown wrapper.
There, done with that, ok, peeps, it is my second Friday, so I know you all know what that means, Starbucks is on the agenda. I do believe I will be getting an unsweetened passion tea lemonade. I love those things, so yummy! Then off to work to help people stay connected with the world!
Peace out hommies!
Angie World 