Well it is Sunday and I find myself living a cliché’, I am lazy, after cleaning like a dervish yesterday I figure I deserve it. What is it about a man that when he lives with a woman he becomes a boy again? Not doing laundry, not vacuuming, not cleaning the bathrooms. It is no wonder I am so tired! We are going to have to have a talk. I cannot do it all, I have never been one of those women who said oh I want it all. I can do it all. No, I need help! And yes I do realize that one brief sentence has left me open to a Jess comment. I look forward to it.
I have gone grocery shopping and loaded up with Skinny Cow products, they are saving my life. The dark chocolate caramel treats are particularly tasty, I have to hide them from the Irishman as he eats them all. He doesn’t seem to understand he is already skinny, he does not need to be a skinny cow, I do!
Recently I have become enamored with iced coffee, so good, what a tasty, caffeine filled treat. Well this morning, or rather, afternoon, I have created my own! Very proud of it, I love coffee, I know I haven’t said much about it lately, but we are very much still in love. Coffee loves me, I love coffee, it is symbiotic, It gives me energy and well, I give it validation for it’s very existence. Remember, caffeine is God’s way of saying “I love you Angie”.
Chewie and the Irish People
So today I spoke to the Irishman’s mom and dad and aunt and uncle via skype, so they got to see me, the only problem with this is I was not forewarned. I had no makeup on and workout clothes on. Do any of you know how stressful this is? I never allow anyone to see me without makeup! I had to do an early morning delivery of United Way sale items and was dropping off, leaving, quick Starbucks run, then planned on working out. Not talking to future in-laws via Jetsons technology. It was the first time they had seen me. Can you believe that is the way they saw me??? They must think I am the ugliest creature alive. The absolute horror!
I did not get to work out, too traumatized, I did however clean everything in sight today. All clothes are clean, it is clean sheet day, and it was so pretty the back door was open all day so Chewie could come and go as he pleased.
Speaking of Chewie, the Irishman was showing his family Chewie and he was telling them that Chewie is 15 and is slower now. About that time, Chewie begins hopping about, as if to prove him wrong. He was saying, uh yeah, whatever, look at me!
I love that dog!
Well that was my traumatizing day, I will have to go to therapy to get past the horror of it all. I hope everyone else had a great Saturday.
Sweater Dresses and Boots
I am bone tired, cooking food and serving it for 8 to 10 hours is very tiring, but the end result is always good. We make money to help people in our community. That is a good feeling. I have such a great team, I can’t say enough good things about them.
I have been thinking a lot about Sandi lately, and Dee, I miss them both so much, I still have their numbers in my phone, I have their pictures on there as well. When one gets to the age that death is inevitable that is one thing, but to die from horrible diseases too young is another. Sandi’s was not by her choice, although I believe Dee had a choice. She chose to smoke, and chose to continue to smoke even when she knew it was killing her. That is the sad thing, and it does not diminish the pain of the ones left behind, I believe it heightens it.
On to other topics, I refuse to be unhappy today, the weather is cooler, it is bordering on boots and sweater dresses season, and I could not be happier. I am 25 pounds lighter this season and am so beyond excited to get some new sweater dresses! I love them! I want a closet full of them, I also want to live somewhere that I can wear them nine to ten months of the year. I can hardly wait for snow this year! I am so beyond excited about the possibility. There is always the possibility of snow here in North Texas. We mainly get ice, which I will take, but there is that occasion, the slim chance, that we will get snow, and twice in a row it has been on my birthday! You are all welcome! I will bid you all adieu for now, making breakfast tacos today to sell at Lakeside tomorrow. See you all there!
MK5K #abolishcancer
I have decided to participate in the MK5K, what is that you ask, well it is the Mary Kay 5K to raise funds for the Mary Kay Ash Foundation. They give grants to help fight cancer effecting women and also to groups that are trying to eradicate domestic violence. This year I decided to participate after my friend Dixie said she was running and asked if anyone wanted to join her. I am going to participate in memory of my friend Sandi. Next month will mark the one year anniversary of her passing after a 20 year battle with breast cancer. Here is the link for everyone to donate! http://support.marykayfoundation.org/site/TR/MK5K/General?px=1025772&pg=personal&fr_id=1130 if you can find it in your heart and pocket book every amount is helpful!
Angie and the Irishman
I met the Irishman before my beloved Tessa was born, I thought he was Scottish, don’t ask me why, I have no answer for that one. I have to be honest; I never really paid any attention to him, just a co-worker and one that was not in my group so I didn’t have day to day contact with him.
One day I get this chat (company chat) from some man with a weird last name asking me a question, no good morning or introduction just the question. Well this irritates me; I like the niceties in life. So I said out loud, “Who is this?” and one of the guys in my area looked at the chat and said oh that’s that Irish guy. I said what Irish guy and they all stared at me, and described him and I said oh I thought he was Scottish. I answered his question and that was that. The next day, same thing, but this time I thought to myself, um no. so I typed good morning and sat back and waited. Then he said well it is not a good morning because of whatever the issue was. So I answered his question and that was that. The next day, I get a chat, it says good morning. We became friends, which was in September of 2007, then we began to talk outside of work. It was still friendship, nothing more, nothing less. I blame Disney for this whole thing, it was Christmas time and I was at the mall and saw these amazing life-size princess dolls at the Disney store and sent him a text telling him he needed to get one for his little girls. He then sent a text back saying he needed to do some Christmas shopping and did I want to go with him. Well, shopping, mall, given. I was there. We met at the mall, he got the doll and I got the few remaining things I needed and we spent several hours walking around the mall talking. I had the best time; I had not laughed that hard in a long time. After we left the mall he sent me a text telling me he had had a great time and would love to do it again, perhaps this time not in a mall. I said I had also had a great time and would love to do it again.
We agreed on Wednesday, I realized that was New Years Eve, so the next day I told him it was New Years Eve and would understand if he had other plans. He said there was no one else he would rather spend that evening with.
The Saturday before the Wednesday, we decided to meet for lunch, he had a 3 hour split shift, so we met at the Olive Garden. Amazing conversation, he is really funny, and then he had to go back to work, he walked me to my car and we had our first kiss. I knew I was in trouble then, I probably should have canceled the date right then and there. But I didn’t, and the rest is history as they say. It is my history, my present and hopefully my future.
We began dating, for my birthday he gave me a necklace that his grandmother had given him before he left Ireland. He said she told him to give it to the woman who had his heart, I have only taken it off once, and that was for the brief period that we had broken up. I tried to give it back and he said I would always have his heart and he wanted me to keep it.
I have been thinking about our history a lot lately, going over things in my mind, always looking, always questioning. That is me, I can drive myself insane. I loved those early days, although I have to say when it is just the two of us, we are still the exact same as we were then. Always laughing, being completely goofy and loving it.
History
I think about the afterlife a lot, I seem to be surrounded by death, I grew up going to funerals. Uncles, Aunts, Great-Uncles and Great-Aunts, my Grandfather. Then later my son, grandmother and parents. I wish that death would take a break with me, losing Sandi last year was unbelievably hard, there are times I can actually hear her voice. Angela, that is what she would call me most of the time, she would say it with a certain tone. I can’t even explain it, just know there are times I can hear her say my name as clear as day.
I still miss her so much, I could use someone to tell me what to do right about now, I find myself in a situation where I am unable to make decisions like I should. I hate that, I have never been that way.
For those of you who may be new readers, I shall give you an abreviated story of me:
I was married young, we had four children, one of whom passed away, and then 10 years later he decided he liked blonds better than brunettes. So off he went, I raised my 3 children, I went to college for two years, worked 2 jobs, then got the job with a major telecommunications corporation.
I spent all of my time with my children, running them here and there, on the weekends they were with their dad, well there were still baseball games, dance recitals, soccer games and of course later FFA type things. There was never time for anything else, I honestly don’t know how single mothers find the time to meet men. Anyway, 14 years later, I met someone and we started dating, we have been together 3 years and 8 months. So if you can do the math, more power to you. We did break up once, well, I broke up with him, for one week, maybe it was a week and a half. We are engaged now, since December 2009, we began dating in December 2007.
there is an abrievated story of my adult life.
oh and my children, they are amazing, all of them!
Saturday Happiness?
Today is a very busy day, I am celebrating two birthdays, in the same day, Wanda and Gladys, pray for me that I don’t go over my Weight Watchers points! As of this morning I have lost a total of 25 pounds! I look totally amazing, I don’t even care how vain that sounds. It’s the truth, I am totally hot, well, maybe not in the way a 20 something is, but in the way a woman my age is, I am so there. Almost.
Today is a very busy day, so not a long post, but I just wanted to say I am doing much better. No more morose posts as they are not me, I cannot stay down for long, I don’t have the personality for it. Pity parties have never been my forte’, revenge, now that is a different story. I have been known to wreck as much havoc in the lives of the offenders as they have wrecked in mine.
I think I am going to need new clothes, yes this is a huge hint to my children for Christmas. They say they never know what to get me, however, they always come through, I never have to tell them what I want. Remember the purple boots Elizabeth? I still love them, best present EVER. I am now wearing a skirt that I bought and have never been able to wear, and it feels amazing. Some people at work yesterday told me I even look younger. Huge bonus! Must go to finish getting dressed, lots to do, people to see, places to go! I hope everyone enjoys this amazing weather!
Another Day Another Food Sale
Today is sausage on a stick and Earl Campbell hot links, I am not sure what that means but apparently here in Texas the name brand is important.
I am doing a little better this week, not great but better, answers trickled in, insight was gained, life will never be the same. The question on the table is can life be resumed? Changed, perhaps made stronger? We shall see, only time can tell.
Well today is Friday and that means I will be wearing OU gear, of course, all the OU fans in the house say HEY. Sometimes I crack myself up.
I have ordered new boots, they have not been shipped yet, I need them soon as the weather is getting crisper. There is a hint of fall in the air and we all know what that means. Boots and sweater dresses, I don’t think my sweater dresses will fit, I have lost a lot of weight and am a very tiny woman. I may need all new fall clothes. I cannot tell you how very unsad that makes me.
Ok folks, back on the money making road, Monday is a breakfast sale of pancakes, eggs and turkey sausage. Come one come all! I make great pancakes!
Labor Day Ramblings
I have found there is only so much that we, as women, can take before circumstances make us completely insane.I reached that point about 3 months ago, I find myself on a quest to find out the truth and nothing but the truth, so help EVERYONE around me. That truth is not pretty,nor is it palatable, however, muddle through I shall. Anyone who knows me (my children) will tell you, if you have a secret I am going to find out, if that secret directly affects me, I am going to work overtime to ferret out the truth. And when I do, there will be consequences for the offending parties actions. I have never been one to let things alone, or to ignore evidence, I should have been a dectective. Who knows maybe I was in a former life, a gum shoe in the 1940’s, a redhead who wore a hat, with one of those great outfits you see the old movie stars wearing. And the shoes! Perhaps it is not too late for me, I have the great outfits and shoes are never an issue, I can always dye my hair.
The one thing I feel horrendous about, in my desire to ferret out the truth I have hurt someone, a someone I have never met. I opened a can of worms I am sure they would have wanted to stay closed. I understand they think one of my blog entries is about them, it is not. It was my friends topic of the day on their radio show, and not about them at all. Please know, if you read this, I am truly sorry for opening your wounds and pouring salt in them.
Yesterday I did absolutely nothing, and I do mean nothing, today I am going to shower, make bacon and pancakes for breakfast and finish laundry and get ready for our next food sale tomorrow. We are grilling hotdogs for three buildings simultaneously. We have Gladys back with us, so it is all hands on deck! Gladys get ready for the onion chopping! I know how much you love it!
I hope everyone has a fantastic Labor Day, this is our day, every working man and woman in the United States of America!
Mood Thingy
Yesterday was our first food sale of the United Way season; I have to say it went fantastic! My team officially rocks! I know lately I have been evasive and not very giving with information on my private life, not that I am an open book in that area to begin with. However, I know lately I have been more evasive than usual.
There are reasons for that, it has been a rough year, and an extremely rough couple of months, but I am muddling through the best I can, and can even see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I’ll be honest right now I could use a day at home where no one is here, an impossibility these days, but it is what I really want, just one day of peace and quiet, just time for me to read or watch television or both. I am adept at doing both of those things, what would you do if you had your home to yourself for an entire day? Would you sing, shout, knock yourself out? A prize to the person who knows what and whom I am quoting with that previous sentence.
It is a long weekend, with no specific plans, the Irishman has to work today and beginning tomorrow he has his children, so nothing fun in the near future for me. Perhaps I will take a nap today, not exciting but definitely reeks of escapism, or perhaps I shall lock myself in the bedroom with a book and the television. However I am furious with Time Warner Cable right now, I cannot view anything On Demand, all I get is a black screen, I called in this morning to have them fix it and all I got was a oh I’ll send this up to our networking group. Well I work for a large telecommunications corporation, I know what that means. I am totally screwed and will not be able to watch Torchwood today, maybe tomorrow. I was also going to watch the Lifetime movie with Charisma Carpenter in it, now I can do neither. I am not in a good mood. Also was making an iced coffee thingy and of course with the lid of my blender broke I made a mess. Nothing is going the way I want it to, I think I need to scream and shout. Alright folks there is a new feature here, it is a moodthingy, yes that is the correct name of it, please let me know how this blog made you feel!
